Empty Space

CHAPTER 43

After 3 days of vacation nakauwi na kami ng pilipinas.

The moment I stepped foot in the philippines the first thing I did was call sara.

Her phone was just ringing but she's not answering, I tried calling her multiple times but to no avail.

Bagsak ang balikat ko nung ilang beses akong tumawag pero hinde niya talaga sinasagot.

It's 4:00 o'clock in the afternoon,

Lagi ko siya tinatawagan at this time dahil alam kong sa ganitong oras siya pinaka available.

Nagrerelax kasi siya ng ganitong oras bago mag ayos para umuwi.

It's been 4 days na hinde ko siya nakakausap and I super missed her sweet voice.

Mag sesend pa sana ako ng text nang biglang dumating si liza.

I hid my phone the moment I saw her coming towards me then I smiled at her trying to conceal that something's bothering me.

My mind was out there no where to be found lost for this particular woman that never left my mind for a single moment.

Hinde kona alam kung ano ang mararamdaman ko dahil hinde ko alam kung bakit hinde niya sinasagot ang mga tawag ko.

Then I thought to myself maybe sara felt this way nung time na hinde ako nagparamdam.

And it was really a torture.

I texted her several times since yesterday pero hinde talaga siya nagrereply.

Hinde na ako mapakali baka meron na palang nangyari.

I stood up then started to walk from here and there trying to think kung paano ako makakahanap ng paraan para malaman ang nangyayari sa babaeng mahal ko.

It's 9:00 o'clock in the evening.

And then suddenly baste came into my mind once again.

Nahihiya man ako dahil humingi na ako ng pabor sa kanya nung nakaraan pero kailangan kong lunukin ang hiya ko dahil hinde ako mapapalagay pag hinde ko malaman kung ano na ang lagay ni sara.

Tatawagan kona dapat si baste nung nakatanggap ako ng message from her.

Parang tumalon ang puso ko sa sobrang saya the moment I saw her name on my message box.

I hurriedly opened her message and to my dismay she only sent me words that I didn't expect.

Sara's message : "sorry for beeping you late love just busy lets talk some other time."

Hinde ko maintindihan pero nasaktan ako nung nabasa ko ang message niya.

Alam kong dapat matuwa ako kasi kahit papano ay nag message siya sakin pero parang may mali.

Hinde ko nagawang magreply dahil parang sumama ang loob ko sa naging message niya sakin.

I mean, I've been calling her since yesterday tapos yun lang ang sasabihin niya sakin I felt really dissapointed.

After that night I never tried to call her nor text her..

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Her inauguration is approaching 1 week from now.

I didn't gave my decision to my organizers if I'm coming or not and told them not to confirm anything yet.

We never talked simula nung gabing yun hinde ko din siya tinawagan.

She never tried to reach out on me also, I don't understand what was happening to us.

All I know is nagtatampo ako sa kanya it's been how many days now.