Professor Malfoy

44 | day fifteen

Chapter 44
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The only thing keeping me alive is the fact that he is alive. I had to get through myself and go to my classes, even though my head was about to explode. I skipped breakfast today, only because I didn't want to see Pansy. Didn't want her to see me looking like this.

I saw Theo many times, but he couldn't talk to me, because his girlfriend was always by his side. Actually, we haven't spoken since the night. I guess it's for the best, more time spent together like the previous time would only confuse our feelings.

Zion, though, accompanied me through the whole day, sat with me in classes and we ate lunch together. For a moment, life felt...normal. Not good, not horrible. Just normal. I guess that's what happens when you shut your feelings down.

But the moment I got into my room, the mess in it, the bed, the darkness...it only reminded me it's been fifteen days without seeing Draco and almost half without even hearing from him.

And just when I thought I was getting back to normal, I got into it once again. The emptiness in my heart, it's starting to physically hurt me.
Despite all that, I am willing to wait. It is, after all, just a few more days. Right?

Before closing my eyes and trying to fall asleep, I send him a message down our bond.

"I love you."