This boy next to my room

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Connor

I turn over once more on my bed to try to find the perfect position to fall asleep. My brain is completely out of control, since dinner, he's always replaying the same scene from earlier.

I still have the feeling of those exquisite and unseen lips on mine and the smell of her perfume under my nose. I have never been so attracted to a girl, even Leslie.

Leslie was one of a kind and those kisses were wonderful except that my brain decided to erase all traces of her from my memories. I feel nothing but hatred and disgust for that bitch, whether she's dead or not, it doesn't make up for anything she did.

It scares me to feel this kind of sensation towards June because it's addictive, dangerously addictive and I could totally get addicted to it.

It would have only taken another minute before I took her into that bathroom. But honestly I'm glad I didn't because this girl is a virgin and I have no desire to be the one to remove her 'flower'.

Anyway, it's now 1:00 am and I still can't get to sleep. I'm sure that everyone is asleep now, including her, and knowing that tomorrow I'll wake up exhausted makes me very angry.

I finally decide to send a little message to this asshole Tyler, it would be really nice to let him know that I was close to fuck his flirt but by respect, and because I don't necessarily want to mess up again with June I decide not to tell him.

At the top of his profile, it says he's online. He's not asleep too.

But as I was writing a message with mostly insults, a notification on the top of my screen pops up.

« Leslie's Birthday <3 »

Indeed, she was born on August 1st at 1am.

Contrary to before, this notification doesn't make me feel anything anymore, I could even say that it disgusts me.

༄ Flashback - August 1, 2019.

"You don't know how much fun it is to celebrate my birthday with you honey."

Leslie's sweet, melodious voice echoed through the park in the beautiful summer sunshine. I admired her, admired her hair and especially her angelic face.

"And you don't know how happy it makes me to have you in my life."

The beautiful whitish smile she displayed on her rosy lips stretched further. I loved seeing her smile, it makes me want to kiss her, she's beautiful.

"You're adorable Connor, I love you so much." She sighed softly before laying her head on my shoulder. I tenderly caressed her hair perfumed with the aroma of vanilla, I also enjoyed this sweet gift that life had given me.

A girlfriend.

A girlfriend who knew how to understand me.

"What would you like as a birthday present, Les' " I asked her.

"You. Or rather your stuff" She joked.

I laughed at her joke, which wasn't really a joke. Because when we got back to her room, she had jumped on me.

Her face, as innocent as it looked, was not totally innocent. It concealed a lot of bad intentions towards me.

If I had known...