This boy next to my room

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June

"What do you want?" I ask once we get further down the hall. I'm afraid of what he wants to tell me, I know that yesterday he was drunk and that normally he doesn't have to remember it, but it's quite probable.

"I want to set the record straight with you, whatever may have happened yesterday, know that I deeply regret it." He says. My breath catches, he knows and he knows that I know that he knows. It shows in the look in my eyes and the way I avoid him.

"Obviously you weren't very drunk since you remember it but anyway, you're right none of this should have happened and I think we'd better act like it never did."

I expect him to nod but he just stares at me. I decide to turn away but he calls out to me with his hoarse voice.

"Wait, that's not so not what I meant actually.. I'm sorry and uh.. can we go back to being friends?"

I stop and my eyes meet his for the first time since the incident. They glow in a very different way than usual and I have to say that it worries me. He wants us to be friends again, but both he and I know we're already past that point. We can't be friends. Not after what happened and not after my erotic dream too.

"I don't think that's a good idea Connor." I sigh more weakly than usual. There's a small moment of silence before he answers me.

"Why? I apologized and it won't happen again?" He asks sternly.

"We'll pick up this discussion later." I say as I walk over to my best friend.

                                       ...

After giving Jacob a tour of the residence, I invite him into my room. We sit on the bed and his eyes become mischievous which makes me laugh a little. I already know what he is going to talk about.

"Well, tell me everything." I say to change the subject.

"You first." He replies.

"No I asked you first." I insist, giving him a bored look. He finally gives in and sighs.

"Well okay... I was in police custody for twenty-four hours and when I came out, I learned that the cassier had filed a complaint. I was questioned and asked if I was with people, I did not denounce you because I do not want to embroil you and your family in this shit" He admits.

"What about Josie?" I asked.

"I... I didn't turn her in either." He says, knowing in advance my reaction.

"Jacob seriously !" I grumbled.

"I know, but she looked scared too. I don't want to involve you in this."

"Except it's too late. The damage is done and whether you like it or not all three of us are responsible. So listen to me, if during the trial they ask me to testify I'll confess that I was in on it too."

"No, you're going to jail, June! It's no small thing to hold up a kiosk with a gun." He growls.

"It doesn't matter, I would have deserved it anyway." I say thoughtfully. He glares at me and I smile at him. I have to take responsibility for my actions I don't want Jacob to take everything for us. I must also speak about it to Josie but that will be complicated because after this incident she completely stopped speaking to us.

She's afraid that we'll put her in charge of this case because after all she's the one who forced us to listen to her brother who also manipulated her. She first drugged us without us knowing, and her older brother came and made us steal money from that kiosk for him. We were way too high and like dogs, we listened to him and that's where it's going.

After that he threatened Jacob that if he reported him to the police he would hurt us. You have to know that this guy is not at all reliable and for far too long we have kept our mouths shut. But that's it, I'm going to tell everything in two days.