This boy next to my room

34

June

We decided to watch a romantic comedy 'about time' by Richard Curtis. I liked it and at the end I found myself leaning my head against Tyler's shoulder. Still I enjoyed spending time with him, my thoughts couldn't help but wander to the jerk at times but I would get back to it pretty quickly.

It's now seven thirty something and it's almost time for dinner. Tyler hands me back my phone, which is low on battery, now and gets up from the bed. I smile at him.

"Well I guess I'll just hang out with my buddies for a bit, see you June." He says, winking at me.

"Okay see ya." I reply with a smile.

After that, he leaves my room and I find myself alone. I decide to tie my hair up in a ponytail in front of the bathroom mirror so I look a little more presentable at dinner. I can't wait to meet Kat downstairs too.

But as I was readjusting my hair, the door to Connor's room suddenly opens and the first thing I see is his bare abs. Fortunately, the hatred I feel towards him is still present so I hasten to raise my eyes and throw him a dark look.

Not surprisingly, he does the same while moving towards the shower.

"It's fun to fuck with my best friend, isn't it ? Especially knowing what I did." He sighs with the most arrogant tone. I don't know what he's talking about and I honestly don't give a shit.

"What about you ? Do you enjoy humiliating me in front of everyone?" I reply with a tone of voice just as arrogant as his.

"Shut up and stop complaining, all you had to do was not turn my friends against me."

"What exactly are you talking about Connor ? Because I have done absolutely nothing to deserve this gratuitous humiliation."

"You didn't do anything? Come on.." He growls as he opens the shower door. "Get out, I'm showering." He orders.

"Not if you don't explain why you did this to me."

He looks at me with incomprehension and suddenly his face brightens, as if he's just figured something out. I give him a questioning look and then he scratches the back of his neck nervously.

"Never mind. I'm sorry, okay? I thought that... Anyway, it's not important." He sighs.

"No it's too late, you started so you finish. Is it my fault you don't talk to Tyler anymore ?" I ask.

He sighs louder this time, I can see the annoyance in his eyes but when he starts to move towards me, my body tenses. What is he going to do? Already I'm killing myself trying to forget my hot dream and the evening when i fall in him, adding a layer to it will be fatal for my mind.

And for my body.

Because yes, the feeling of being close to him made every cell of my epidermis react and I have to say that I hate it.

I hate that effect he gives me every time he goes over the edge. Plus, I'm in a period of bonding with his best friend or rather, his ex-best friend now. I can't get out of line.

"Do you really want to know June ?" He asks as he continues to move forward, isn't he going to stop? He's already passed the safe distance and now here I am again getting lost in his dark eyes.

This is not going to end well.

But he's not drunk this time.

"Connor don't.." I sigh as he stops right in front of me, our bodies only millimeters apart and our breaths mingling.

"Why? Didn't you like last time ? I didn't want to admit it to myself at first either, but now I've come to terms with the fact that I'm sexually attracted to you." He admits it so easily that my heart almost gives out.

It also gives me chills because deep down I feel the same. That burn on my skin every time his breath caresses it, the unknown desire to feel it takes hold of me and finally I want to kiss him like I've never wanted to.

But behind it all, there is also a huge fear of being dumped or being on his list of girls to fuck. But even though I hate him from the bottom of my soul, something about him attracts me in an unhealthy way.

"And you want to know how much you turn me on June ? well there you go, while I was fucking Cynthia I accidentally moaned your name, and you don't know how much it pisses me off." He finishes before walking away towards the shower again.

I stand still, staring into Connor's eyes. I barely understood what he just said to me, but I understood anyway. So that's why Tyler isn't talking to him anymore? Wasn't he the one criticizing my looks not even a month ago? He's fucking moody.

I look down after several seconds of thinking and when I finish digesting his words I realize that I'm leaning against the sink and he's staring at me with an arched eyebrow.

"Well now that I've told you everything, will you let me shower ?.. Unless you..."

"Say no more." I cut him off.

He chuckles and points with a quick glance at me the door.

"Connor?" I whispered knowing full well what bomb I was about to drop. He looks at me again waiting for an answer and without even thinking I blurt out these words:

"I have... I had a dream that we were... We were, you know.." I began. "And now I... Argh fuck ! You know what ? forget it, it's totally stupid." I sigh.