This boy next to my room

48

June

I get on my side while he gets back on his back. I'm eager to know the life of this boy who seems to me abnormally soft this evening. His well-formed jaw as well as his eyes pointing to the roof leaves me wanting more, he is an apollo.

"My father is quite an influential person and he has an important business in this country and my mother is his secretary. My birth was very bad news for them, I was not wanted." He begins without flinching. "My childhood was not all rosy too, I was often alone at home and I learned to fend for myself in everyday things. This caused me to grow up too fast and pretty soon I started hanging out with people bigger than me."

I continue to look at him and listen carefully, waiting for him to continue. "These people had to be involved in some pretty dark stuff, gang stuff, drug stuff, street fights and all that stuff. I knew about that, but I decided to go with them anyway. It was on one night that they made me commit my first crime; hitting someone to the point of taking him to the hospital."

I have the impression that he is waiting for my reaction because he stops and turns his head towards me, I smile at him.

"The crimes keep coming and getting worse, until one day my father found out. His reaction was terrible and my mother's too, he was just pitying his reputation and saying that if people found out their son was a fucking thug, he was going to kill me. After that, I decided it was better to stay away from my family to keep them out of trouble. I went to live with my uncle but things didn't get any better because I kept going out secretly with my buddies. Then one day, karma caught up with me and I ended up in police custody. My dad went ballistic and decided to send me here."

"I see, you still talk with them ?" I ask out of curiosity.

"Not anymore." He sighs.

"What about Leslie ? How did you two meet ?"

"I met her when I first arrived. She was the first girl I ever loved, she was really special and unique, yet behind it all was someone mean. I offered her my virginity and my first kiss as well as my heart which she did not fail to destroy. We were the couple that made everyone in the reformatory envious for a long time. Tyler was one of the only ones who was against our relationship and I hated him for that."

Hearing him talk about his first love takes away any negative thoughts I had about him. He wasn't an asshole, he became one because of love.

"It wasn't until a few months later that I discovered what she was doing behind my back. It was a rainy afternoon, I remember it like it was yesterday. I had just secretly smoked a cigarette in the backyard and was on my way upstairs to see her. What I saw when I opened the door turned my stomach and made me completely disgusted with love." He says with a grimace without realizing it, his hand tightening in mine as if he was reliving the scene.

"Leslie was undressed with the cock of my FUCKING DAD shoved up her pussy. I don't even know how it had gotten there and I found out later that he had come to visit me. She was going back and forth with it and moaning like she had never done with me, she was riding him and seemed to be experiencing an orgasm that I could never have given her."

My eyes widen,his fucking father ! damn it, that's horrible.

"You can't understand how I felt that day, I fucking loved her! I loved her like I've never loved anyone. I was even ready to forgive her so much I was in love, I was ready to kill my father who was nothing but a disgusting pedophile !" He spits in a voice full of contempt and disgust. It breaks my heart.

"After I found out I planned the worst for him, destroy his fucking business by telling everyone that this son of a bitch is a pedophile who fucks teenage girls, except he ran away and left me in this godforsaken hole and told the others not to let me out, under any circumstances. I was mad at Leslie too even though I loved her so I didn't talk to her for a couple of days and just as I had decided to leave her, I found out that she... She committed suicide."

"Oh.. Connor." I gasp as I slowly move closer to him.

It hurts me to know what he went through before he met me, it must have really broken him and made him lose all his trust in his family. I don't know his father but I know he's a bad person, he deserves prison more than his son.

"Let me guess, your dad is still out there after that ?"

"Yeah, this asshole is still running his businesses like nothing happened, people probably even forgot I exist. The only thing I wish for him now is to be tortured by his pedophile conscience for the rest of his life. I want him to suffer like I suffered."

"And... Do you know why Leslie killed herself ?"

"No, and I want to believe it was because she regretted it, but I don't think so. A normal person would never take her own life over a cheating affair, even if it is with her boyfriend's father. In my opinion, it goes further than that, I'm even starting to believe that my father forced her to do it. For his reputation, he's capable of anything."

I agree, I have to admit that this story gives me the creeps. It's a real problem we're talking about and if Connor's theory is true, this story will be classified as a murder. Knowing that he has been through this kind of thing is very surprising to me.

It's a lot to carry.

I don't know what I would have done in his place.

He's incredibly strong.

"This must be really complicated and confusing for you, you're strong Connor." I say as I stroke his palm with my hand.

"I guess.. And by the way, I don't even know how I came to tell you, I've never confided in anyone before you." He confesses in a breath. "Even Tyler doesn't know about my dad so I'd like to keep it between us okay ? No matter how much you hate me."

"Connor after everything you just said to me I don't even know if I'll be able to hate you anymore. Besides, I really like our... Relationship, I mean... what we do."

He laughs and then gently moves closer to me, positioning himself on my side.

"This night... It's different from the others don't you think? We haven't had a fight." He says smiling adorably.

"Yeah it was cool, but I'm not sure it will last."

"Me too, June."