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Chapter 17: Rose

Killed all those people... Me. I killed those people. My friends. Neighbors.

I've tried to avoid the thought for so long. But instead of sorrow, deep fury that has seemed to always be buried within me sets to the surface.

Nothing is going to change unless I do something. I'm sick of playing hero, or criminal. I've played both. But the hardest part of all this is that I've looked hard enough to see that no one can understand me. It's like my brain has been wired completely different from the rest of the world. I feel emotions too passionately, making people confused. Impulsive. I do the first thing that pops in my head, leading to bad results. And finally, no matter what, it's VERY hard for me to admit I was wrong.

Nathan doesn't get it. No one does. But of course, I'm stuck with him. I mean, I'm not exactly complaining, I just don't understand why he supposedly "loves" me.

"Rose, please let me in. You know I didn't mean that," I hear his voice. I don't bother answering.

In the morning, after a practically sleepless night, I find that Nathan has left to go to the store. I don't know how long ago, but I decide to track him down so he can get traveling supplies.

Easy. I'll tell him we're leaving whether he likes it or not. If he refuses to go, then I'll go on my own. Which also means he'll probably follow me eventually.

I walk halfway to the grocery store, which is farther than you'd think. But a flash of something catches my eye. Behind an ice building, an awfully familiar figure stands there.

Stepping backwards a few steps, I peek into the small alley. I can't help but have my jaw drop a little.

Gwen and Nathan are standing there, but that's not all of it. Gwen's lips are pressed against his. He looks surprised, and for a moment about to pull away. But he doesn't. For a while.

I want to be angry. I want to go over there and smack him hard in the face. But I just spin around on my heels, golden braid swinging.

"Oh gosh... Rose?" I hear Nathan's shocked voice behind me. I try to walk away, but he grabs my shoulder. I turn around angrily, but only slip and fall on my butt as I face them. Gwen looks awkward, knowing that I just saw her kiss my boyfriend.

"Rose..." Nathan begins.

Tears uncontrollably fill my eyes, and my lip quivers slightly as it always does when I'm very upset. Nathan's eyes seem to panic. He's never really hurt me before. But after a moment of silence, I get up, and walk away.

I won't say a word to him when he gets home. He'll think I'm just mad, and will try to make up. But it's kind of hard to do that when I'm gone saving the world. Alone.

I write a note to make sure her knows I didn't die or anything. It might have had a few misspelled words, but it went something like this:

Nathan,

You might be wondering why I didn't say 'Dear Nathan.' Well, dear would mean that you are dear to me, in which I'm currently unsure of.

Well, I kinda ran away. Don't try to follow me, I think I'll do just fine on my own. Besides, Gwen may get very lonesome with you gone. I'm being sarcastic, obviously, because I won't hide the fact that what you did has really pissed me off. I'm not good at writing letters. When I'm Fire Lord, I'll send you a post card from the palace. Take care of Luna for me.

-Rose

P.S.- you're an idiot. And I'm stealing a boat....