Immortal love (Caius)

He's in the past

I knew I was going to go back to see him. The ache in my chest confirmed it, he was rude and insufferable, but I longed for him. Of course, I had to play it cool but I knew the moment he asked me to return I would, the same power I held over him he had over me, so I definitely understand the frustration. Now that I was up I couldn't go back to sleep, I was buzzing. I felt high on his touch, I began to imagine what it would feel like if he had kept kissing me down my neck, and kept going further down. My cheeks started to heat up and bright blue hydrangeas sprouted from all of my plants. I shook my head violently "fuck, I'm in it bad" Right as I spoke I heard a soft knock on my door and could hear Edward waiting for my permission to enter. "Come in," I thought. 

Then he was in my room, I immediately shut the door and soundproofed the room. He spoke out loud "That's not a good sign, what happened?" I let out a large groan before flopping onto my couch. "I have officially lost my damn mind, I saw him again. And Ed I don't think I'm dreaming. He was really there, and what's worse is I think I'm the reason we can meet in our minds, my desire is manifesting in my power, I fell asleep thinking of him then I awoke in his room or mind or whatever." Edward just stared at me. I groaned again before speaking "Eddie for god's sake please say something before I combust" He sat down on the floor next to the couch before speaking. "You want to keep seeing him?" I looked down at Eddie and sucked in a breath "I think you know the answer to that" Edward spoke again "What if this is a trick, what if your telepathy is being manipulated, and making you weak? I see what you feel for him Sol, but you know what he is, he could never love you the way you deserve to be loved" A tear snuck out of my eye as I held back a sob. Why did his words hurt, of course, he was right, why would a king of vampires truly want me the way I wanted him? And why the hell did I even want him, because he was mysterious? Because he showed me attention? Or because he touched me in ways I had never been touched. I don't know shit about love, why would I ever think this could be it? How stupid and naive. As all these thoughts ran in my mind the flowers withered and the room suddenly became so cold I could see my breath. 

Edward grabbed my hand and shook me "Solstice stop, I didn't mean to be so harsh, stop thinking that way. This isn't about you, you were never the problem, he is." his words snapped me back. "Oh my god I'm sorry I don't know what came over me, I'm better than this. My emotions are making me crazy." At that moment I gathered myself and pushed all the feelings deep down, where I could control them. I shook my head and tried to plant a natural smile on my face even though it was extremely forced. Edward spoke softly "they don't make you weak" I shot him a puzzled look. He spoke again "your emotions, they don't make you weak" I sighed and squeezed his hand. "They make me dangerous," I said before standing up and walking to my bathroom to start getting ready for school. 

Edward had a worried look on his face. "Eddie it's fine, you are right about everything, I have to get a grip. This thing with Caius is history, call it a momentary lapse of reason. Now go, I need to get ready for school." He hesitated but finally walked out after leaving a kiss on my forehead. Once he was gone I slid down the bathroom wall and held my hand to my neck where Caius left his burning kiss. Hot tears streamed down my face, and my chest ached at the thought of never going back to him I felt my power trying to surge from me but I fought it. I cried it out and finally stood up. I finally dropped the soundproofing from my room so Edward and my family wouldn't worry and prepared myself for the obstacle at hand. 

The new girl was coming today, and I had to make sure my brother wouldn't do anything he would regret.