Immortal love (Caius)

Love and Opening up

I woke up in my bed, I was still in my room this time and I saw Caius snooping around my bookshelf. "This is quite the pleasant surprise Solstice, bringing me to your home. A bit risky don't you think?" He went to open my door but it was locked. "You only see what I let you see Caius, I brought you here to let you in a little more. Don't make me regret it." I said half joking. He threw his hands up in surrender "I'm just curious that's all, I thought we were only meeting once a week." He said as he ran his fingers across my bed, suddenly I was nervous that he was in my room. "I know what I said, if you didn't want to meet today I can go," I said quickly, and he quickly made eye contact with me. "I never said that. You are so feisty." he said a little panicked before he spoke again calmly "Are you well?" I didn't answer right away, because frankly, I didn't know how to answer. I wasn't well, I was the opposite, and Caius was the only person I wanted to even be around right now and I couldn't even actually be with him. When I didn't answer he came and embraced me.

"What's wrong love?" I held him tight and spoke quietly "Everything" He stroked my hair and led me to my sofa where he sat and I laid my head in his lap and he continued to stroke my hair. "You can talk to me, It kills me to know you suffer, and there's nothing I can do," Caius said with a tone he never really used. He was sad and felt helpless which also made him angry, he was so complex yet I felt like I understood him. 

"I don't really know where to begin, life was so simple when the only thing I had to worry about was making sure my little sister didn't mouth off to any of the leaders of the church. Now it's been 300 years, my sister is dead, my mother is dead, and I found a family who loves me just as much but I feel like I'm a danger to them. I feel like I'm even a danger to you Caius. I always trust the universe but why fate has been so cruel to me I can't understand." He looked so confused. "A danger to me? I don't understand, what are you afraid of? No matter what happens we are destined, there's nothing you could do that would make me want you less. Is that what you are afraid of?" Although it made my heart swell to know he cared for me so deeply it was more than that, if anyone knew how much I truly felt for Caius they could use it against me... the ones hunting me could hurt him just to get to me. I suppose he felt this way about me too. But these people coming for me could kill my family, they could even kill me. I was at a loss. "It's so much more than that, I know I told you I was immortal but what if I told you there was something that could kill me? What would you do?" He looked upset now, he felt genuine pain at the thought of losing him it made my heart ache. "What are you speaking of? Is there something that could kill you? What is it? I will not let you be harmed, tell me what it is and I will destroy it." I shook my head and a tear rolled down my cheek, he said exactly what I hoped he would and his thoughts said the same. How could I tell him about the dark witches and black magic, of course, he would come for them and by doing so he would be signing his death warrant. I reached up to caress his cheek. The ice-cold surface immediately heated to my touch, I couldn't tell him about the possible coven of witches especially since I'm not sure of the situation yet, maybe they weren't as powerful as mama said, maybe I could take them without anyone else risking their lives for me.

 "You would do anything for me wouldn't you?" I asked looking deeply into his eyes. He nodded slowly and thought of how he would even choose me over his family, he felt that I was his destiny and nobody could take me from him. "I would, I would kill anyone who came between us, I would protect you with my life and all my power. You are changing me before all I cared for was power and acquisition... now I just want to win your heart and have you as my queen. And I hope that I will " He looked shocked that he said it out loud, not that he could hide it from me anyways. He tried to fight the vulnerability constantly, he felt it made him weak. 

For thousands of years he built his reputation on being tough and ruthless, he loved that people feared him. The reason he was chosen as a king was for these traits, but now as he looks at me none of that matters. All his inhibitions are gone, as he looks at me. I stare at him in awe for a moment as I see all of these thoughts pass through his mind. Of course, I feel relief to know that he feels such things for me, but more than anything it scares me. It scares me that his feelings are so strong and passionate and that I am what he wants more than anything. I never knew that someone could have such feelings until I felt them for him. To know he shared these feelings was scary and amazing all at the same time.