Immortal love (Caius)

Come to me

I was in his chambers. I can't be here, I could hurt him. I was feeling panicked and trying to force myself out but his hold on my mind was stronger than ever. "Don't go." His voice sent a chill down my spine and sent fire through my body all at the same time. "We need to talk, so no running off this time." He seemed so serious, it had been some time since I had seen this side of him. 

He walked toward me slowly. "Caius I can't be here right now, this conversation will have to wait." I answered him. I tried to walk past him but he stood in my way. His eyes pierced my soul and he stood so close to me the air between us disappeared and my heart threatened to leap from my chest. "Sit down... now" He demanded in a dark voice. He took a step forward and I tried to stand my ground but stumbled back. He grabbed my arm firmly while still having a soft touch. He gently let me go and I sat down on his velvet sofa all while keeping eye contact with him. He was upset, he wasn't going to let me leave until we talked. 

I took a deep breath, he swiftly sat across from me. The distance made me feel cold but It was probably best that he stayed away from me. Although I didn't like the fact that he chose to sit so far from me. "You seem upset.." I said to break the tension between us. He chuckled "Upset? You have no idea, there are no words to describe what I am feeling right now." I panicked, I really didn't know what this was about. Did he somehow find out about Sam? There is now way, there was nothing to find out about Sam, he was just a friend. Why did I even feel guilty about Sam? "Caius I'm lost, what did I do?" He stared at me for a moment then spoke "You lied, you said you were okay. You told me that I didn't have to worry about your safety. You promised me. Yet today I felt your presence leave me, I thought you died. Do you have any fucking clue how that made me feel?" His voice was filled with anger but all I felt was fear and worry. Now there was a knot in my throat and tears welling in my eyes.

 "I lied. I lied to protect you. I have no idea what happened to me today Cai I swear it. I thought I was going to die but instead I turned into a monster." I couldn't even say anymore because now I was sobbing. His expression softened now all I saw was worry. His face and tone said one thing but the moment he saw me he felt relief, he couldn't hide how he truly felt, not from me. He rushed to come near me and hold me.

 I held my hand up to stop him in place. He looked angry again "Release me immediately." he growled. "I am afraid to touch you when I'm not in control of my emotions, I could hurt you." I said with my hand still up. "Let me go, now. I would die one thousand tortuous deaths just to hold you." He answered. He meant it, all I felt was his desire to hold me and comfort me. Reluctantly I put my hand down and immediately I was tucked in his embrace. The warmth was heavenly, the electricity between us was otherworldly. My worries melted away as his hand went up and down my back. "I don't know who I am anymore Caius, but in your arms none of it matters. I am sorry that I worried you..I wasn't in my right mind. I am scared of what I am becoming." He pulled back and put my face between his hands and spoke softly "I was lost without you, I was ready to burn down the world to find you. I thought of all the ways I would torture whoever took you from me. I was out of my head. I would do anything to keep you safe. Can you show me what happened? I need to understand. I need to figure out how I am going to handle this." 

I was scared to show him what I did, but also this would expose my family. Was this the right time to be totally honest or would it make everything more complicated? I inhaled sharply then answered. "If I share this with you, you will know everything about me. I trust you, Caius , so please just be understanding and you have to promise to not use any of this information to hurt my family. I know you are looking for someone to punish but I am telling you I have no clue what happened to me, there may be nobody to blame but me." He nodded cautiously. I touched my forehead to his, and showed him what happened from my meltdown at LaPush to what happened to my family and garden. The only thing I kept from him was Bella and her interest in Edward, the last thing I wanted was for her to get caught up in my drama. He pulled back suddenly and looked overwhelmed. Flashes of Carlise in the volturi centuries ago flashed in his mind. Images of Edward flashed along with feelings of what felt like jealousy, then he thought of Sam and all I felt was rage mixed with jealousy. He stood silent for several minutes. "Caius please say something you are scaring me." I said almost begging.