Immortal love (Caius)

So close yet so far

I was in his chambers and I felt nervous. "Solstice, you came." The sound of Caius's voice instantly brought me peace, I rushed to him and embraced him tightly. "Yes of course I came, I thought you were in danger, how did you do that? I could feel that you wanted me here." He rubbed his hands across my back gently and it sent an electric chill up my spine. "I just thought about you, about how I wanted to see you, and here you are." He said warmly. I let out a sigh of relief. "I um didnt know you could do that, I guess our bond does make our mental connection stronger. I'm just glad you are okay. Why did you call for me, did you miss me that much?" I joked with him. 

He smiled sweetly but I felt a surge of anxiety coming from him. He was worried about something, he was afraid that Aro would find out about something his thoughts were racing so fast I could hardly keep up. "As much as I love your company, my dear, there's something we must discuss. My brother Marcus... he saw something." Caius was nervous and worried, I searched his mind to see why. I saw Marcus telling Caius that our bond was stronger than his bond with his family. I didn't understand why this was a problem we were meant for each other, of course, our bond was strong wasn't that a good thing? I continued to search for answers in his mind and now I understood, after seeing the interaction between Marcus and Caius. Caius wanted to hide this from Aro, he was afraid that Aro would see me as a threat to the stability of the Volturi. "Oh, I see," I said as I backed away from Caius without even thinking. My sudden withdrawal made Caius sad, he blamed himself, and he felt that he was putting me in danger. I just needed a moment to think, this was just another thing coming in between us. 

I could easily hide this from Aro but this whole situation was going to come to light at some point and all hell would break loose. This was just a bandaid and I had a sick feeling it wouldn't last long. Caius spoke and it dragged me out of my thoughts. "I'm sorry, all you asked of me was to keep our secret in order to protect your family and I have failed you." He looked guilty as he reached out for my hand to hold. This vulnerable side of him was something he never thought he could be and it scared him still. I shook my head and held his hand back "No please, how could I blame you? No matter what we do there is always something trying to tear us apart. I don't blame you, I know you are trying. I can hide this from Aro for now but Caius eventually we will have to deal with this. Until I can ensure my family's safety this will do." Caius relaxed a bit as I spoke. "You aren't angry with me? I was sure you would stop our visits. I know you still don't trust me and this isn't helping." He felt panic as he said this. I felt bad, I have been so hard on him, he probably thinks I'm looking for a chance to leave him behind. But the truth is from the moment I laid eyes on him I loved him if he could read my mind he would see that the walls I have up, don't stand a chance against him. I denied myself my true feelings for so long. It's what I do best, for as long as I can remember I have never let myself feel my emotions I felt that they made me weak. I reached for Caius's hand and spoke "I owe it to myself to see where this goes. I want to make this work if you do." A smile spread across his angelic face "Does this mean you will let me visit you?" He said curiously. "Eventually... maybe I'll come to you, one step at a time." I said shyly but my heart pounded giving away my excitement. "I can't wait for the day I can really hold you. Even here I feel you so strongly, I can't imagine how euphoric it will be out there." He said seductively as his hand caressed my already hot cheeks and I felt that feeling that I only ever felt with Caius, the heat in my core and my pulse racing. I also felt nervous, I was so used to seeing him here it felt safe and easy, but the reality of actually seeing him was scary. Not because he was scary but because I don't even know how I would react to actually being with him. I was centuries old but didn't know the first thing about being with someone romantically... and intimately. Moments like these made me thankful he couldn't read my mind. I felt flustered I knew he could sense all my physical reactions which is embarrassing enough for me. "Right so, well shall we deal with our current issue?" I said trying to change the subject and hide my embarrassment. "Of course, so what do you need from me." Caius said seriously never letting go of my hand. "Do you have anything of Marcus? Or something that connects the two of you?" I asked. Caius thought for a moment and reached for a chain around his neck that had a crest embellished with gold and rubies. "This is our family crest, only Aro, Marcus, and I have them. They are a symbol of our brotherhood." He said as he took it off and handed it to me. "This will work, I will use this to connect to him and hide what he saw." I sat down on the cold floor and focused my cosmic energies, Caius watched my every move. I closed my eyes while I held the necklace in my palm and reached out with my mind for Marcus. Then I saw it, the bond,it was bright and strong. I was in awe and then I heard a voice. "I feel you in my mind, your power is strong. You're his mate aren't you?" It was Marcus, he knew I was in his mind. "Yes it's me, I came to hide what you can see from Aro... if you will allow me to. It won't hurt, and it won't affect your gift, just Aro's ability to see Caius and I." I felt awkward meeting Marcus this way but kept a calm tone. "Do what you need my dear, anything to see this bond flourish." With his permission, I hid the evidence behind a wall in his mind and swiftly left his mind. I was back with Caius and he looked worried again. "No need to worry it's taken care of. I need to go now, I sense someone is trying to get my attention. I wish I could stay longer." I said as I felt my mind pulling me back to reality. "I wish you could stay too my love, but I will wait until we meet again." He kissed my hand and my skin buzzed where his lips touched. I smiled at him and closed my eyes despite wanting to stay with him.