Immortal love (Caius)

Stay or Go?

 I woke up on the floor of my room. I got up and continued packing. Suddenly I was looking at all of my clothes and nothing felt good enough. Not only was I going to a beautiful historic city in Italy but I was also going to see Caius for the first time. My wardrobe was very tame and down to earth, nothing really impressive but it would have to do. I didn't have time to be picky.Besides he liked me as I was, I didn't have to pretend with him. I finished packing and sat down at my desk to write my family a letter:

I am taking some time for myself. I am not proud of what happened or how I handled it. I clearly need to deal with whatever is happening to me. I wish I could stay but I think this is for the best. I love you all more than you will ever know. Me leaving has nothing to do with any of you. Years ago I left to control my powers, now I think I need to try that again. I will come home to you all soon. I will keep in touch, please don't look for me or worry, I will be safe.

Love,

Solstice

I folded the letter up and placed it on the counter. I didn't see anyone around, they must've gone hunting to give me some space. I hate to just disappear but it's just easier this way. I know Carlisle and Esme would want me to stay but I have to protect my family and right now I'm dangerous to them.

 I grabbed all my bags and went to walk out and I heard a voice that stopped me in my tracks. "So that's it huh? You were just going to leave without saying anything?" Edwards words were harsh and fell from his tongue like knives. "You knew I was leaving, and it's not for good. I just need to get away from forks for a little while, please don't make this harder for me than it already is." I said to him in reply. "So I'm just supposed to be okay with you choosing Caius over your own family? Did you forget I can read your mind too? We are your family. How could you choose that monster over us!" This is exactly why I needed to leave every argument felt like a tipping point for me, my temper was short and Edward wasn't listening to me. "Edward just stop, you act like I am abandoning you. I am not! You have no idea what is happening inside me, it's something dark, something I don't understand. I just need a break. Is that a crime?" He slammed his fists on the counter top and cracked the marble. "You are afraid of this darkness, afraid to be a monster yet you are going to a place filled with monsters? How does that make any sense? You aren't thinking straight, we need to get to the bottom of whatever happened to you... as a family. You are safe with us and we will handle whatever is happening together okay?" I let out a groan of frustration as I felt dark energy stir within me. "Ed I know that you mean well but you aren't hearing me. You don't even know what Caius and I have. We have an understanding, I know what he has done but we have all done things we regret. How can we judge if none of us are innocent?" Edward let out a cruel laugh. "You are being naive, you've been around so long yet you fall for the first person who shows you the tiniest bit of attention. I don't even know who you are anymore. He doesn't regret what he does, he loves it, they don't call him the cruel king for nothing." 

I stared at him, we fought but it was never this bad my heart ached and I know he did too. His words were harsh and cruel but in his mind he just wanted me to stay where he could protect me. I felt the heat rising in my hands and they began to glow red, I balled them into a fist and took a calming breath. "Eddie, let's just stop before one of us says or does something we can't take back. I love you and I love this family. You guys are my everything but this is something I have to do. I am your sister, your best friend. I'm the same Sol that helped you through your transition all those years ago. I am changing in many ways but you will always be my brother. I have to go now...I know you are angry but I will keep in touch. Don't tell anyone else where I'm going please, it's for their safety." I went to hug him but I hesitated, I was afraid to hurt him again. He stepped forward and pulled me into a tight embrace. He was so angry but he wouldn't let me leave without letting me know he still loved me. "I still don't think this is the right choice but just be careful, no matter how much you trust him. Voltera isn't safe for you, please don't let your guard down" I nodded my head and walked out before he changed my mind. 

The truth is I don't know if this is the right choice, the last time I was near volterra I felt so much fear and anguish coming from inside. Caius said not to worry about Aro but of course I was worried, not only was I an outsider but I was a threat in his eyes. Something they never encountered, an immortal all powerful human witch. If it came down to it would Caius choose me over his family, would I even want him to make that choice? I just hope I can keep my powers in check, being with Caius is supposed to help but being around the rest of the volturi might be an issue.