Immortal love (Caius)

Worlds apart

 I got home and felt like I could finally relax, I didn't have to pretend I was a worry-free high school student anymore now I could be a 300-year-old witch that was possibly being hunted by an ancient force as if that was any better. I raised my hand towards the fireplace and lit it instantly, it felt like a freezer in the house and I'm sure that I'm the only one who noticed. "Soltice, tomorrow no school, the weather is supposed to be nice and sunny." I heard Carlisle say to me as he walked out of his office to throw a blanket around my shoulders. I walked to the kitchen with the blanket around me as I was warming up. "I can change that if you want, it could be rainy and gloomy with the sun out of sight just say the word." I said as I grabbed some cookies Esme made for me and shoved one into my mouth in hopes of forgetting my dilemmas. It was truly heartwarming that Esme always cooks even though I'm the only one that eats. "No, no that's okay, let's let everyone else have a sunny day for once. It won't last long anyways by the end of the day the clouds will roll in again I'm sure." He said kindly. I nodded and gave him a hug before making my way up to my room.

 I saw that Edward's door was closed but I could hear his gloomy thoughts. "Can I come in?" I said in my mind, and Edward opened the door. "What's going on dear brother?" He turned to stare out of his window. "Just thinking about how I am cursed to love someone I can never have." He said with a serious tone. His statement set me off "Ugh seriously? You know what you piss me off! You can be with her, she's head over heels for you yet you insist on pushing her away. What I would give to have my mate so near." I said annoyed, and Edward shot me an angry look. I came to comfort Edward but I just don't have it in me. He could be with Bella if he wanted he's lucky. "You think I'm lucky? I'm in love with a human, she's going to want things that I can never give her, like a family. Not only that but one day she's going to die, then what will I have left but a damned soul and a broken heart? How in the fuck does that make me lucky Sol please enlighten me." Edward snapped at me. Anger coursed through me as I heard his judgemental thoughts. "It doesn't have to be that way and you know it! Why do you torture yourself, she loves you and you love her. Of course, I think you are lucky, all that stands between you and her is your fear! If you just opened up to her I know she would accept you as you are." I yelled. Edward let out a sarcastic laugh. "You are so full of shit sister, how can you sit here and tell me to just open up when you won't even meet Caius in person. Do you think it's healthy to hide in your little fantasy world? I see you pretending to have everything under control when the truth is you are right where I am, if not worse." He said and his words cut me like knives. He was right, I was judging him for lying to Bella and treating her like shit when I was doing the same to Caius. Yes, he knew how I felt about him in a sense, but I still held so much back from him. I only came to him when I needed his comfort but I never took a chance to think he might need me too. I was still hiding from my feelings, I knew I loved him but I wasn't letting myself feel it. I slowly lowered myself onto the floor of Edward's room. "It's different for me, I want to be with him but it's not safe for you all. He stands for everything I'm against, everything my family is against. How could I be with him? You have a shot with Bella, I know it's scary but if I had Caius the way you have Bella I would throw caution to the wind and be with him. I just don't want you to squander your chance at true love. Sue me for caring" Edward calmed down and sat next to me. "We are both in a shitty situation, it's not easy for me. I may not have fallen in love with a member of the Volturi but I fell in love with a human, I don't want to take her life from her. I love her and I want her to be happy, and live a long normal life. I feel selfish for wanting to be with her, does that make sense?" I nodded slowly and started to feel bad about how I reacted. I should've tried to see it from Edward's perspective, because he is right we are both just trying to protect the people we love, in different ways. "I think I'm jealous of you." He gave me a confused look "How so?" I took a deep breath and spoke "Even if you choose not to be with Bella, at least she's here with you. At least you are the one making the choice, I feel like the choice was made for me. No matter how much I love and want Caius it's like we are worlds apart. It's not just my life I have to worry about it's everyone else's too. I wish it was just him and I, not the Volturi, or the fate of my family. That feels selfish of me to say but it's true." Edward grabbed my hand "I have faith we will be okay, no matter what the outcome we will be okay." I wanted to believe him but deep down I felt like I would never truly be okay without Caius, and to make it worse I knew that Edward didn't really believe it would all be okay.

I made my way back to my room and I felt uneasy, my chest was aching the way it did when I was without Caius for too long, but I had just seen him. I started feeling nervous, what if he was in trouble? It's like he was calling out to me. I rushed to my room, locked and silenced my room with a spell then laid down on my bed with Caius on my mind.

A/N: I am definitely trying to update chapters weekly, but things happen. This past week a really bad hurricane hit Florida which is where I live, my street flooded and I lost power so there wasn't much I could do about that. Now that things are starting to go back to normal I will be doing my best to update regularly. My sister and I actually think there is like a Wattpad author curse, from my experience every time I would read stories on here the authors would go on hiatus because crazy shit would keep happening and stop them from updating now here I am experiencing that. Hoping that's the end of it!! Anyways please let me know how you like the chapter! xoxo