dsmp oneshots

my eyes only

tw/cw: graphic self-harm imagery (cutting), implied panic attack, hair pulling

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"do you wanna get food?" sapnap asked, lolling his head to look at the boy sitting beside him.

dream looked up from his phone, humming in thought. after a moment, he nodded, turning to face his best friend. their faces were only an inch apart from where they squeezed onto the twin bed, and dream quickly looked back down at his phone to calm the way his heart flipped when he felt his friend's breath against his lips. "i could eat."

"cool," sapnap chirped, closing down instagram to open doordash and scrolling through their options. the movie they'd been watching had long ended, and sapnap's laptop sat open on the 'continue watching' screen. the pair often got lost in silence when they were together. just existing beside one another.

after a few long moments, sapnap cleared his throat to speak, "pizza?"

"what?"

"pizza. like, to eat. is that okay?" dream's eyes widened in realisation, his mind having gone completely dim in the few seconds sapnap was scrolling. he often finds himself going spacey beside the ravenette.

"pizza's good."

"cool."

sapnap looked back down at his phone, choosing the pizza place with the soonest delivery time and looking through the options. dream continued to look at sapnap, his stomach churning when the other bit his lip as he concentrated.

"you wanna share?"

"pizza?"

"yeah."

dream nodded, "yeah."

sapnap's fond smile widened at dream's simple-minded responses as he looked back down at his phone, admittedly rosy-cheeked, "yeah?"

"uh... yeah." dream swallowed the lump in his throat he didn't know had formed, looking away from his best friend and letting his gaze filter around the room- looking anywhere but the ravenette. everything sapnap did made dream feel like he would combust. like he was holding a match just inches away from the fireworks inside the blonde's heart.

dream knew sapnap knew it, too.

"you good with pepperoni?" sapnap asked.

dream kept his eyes away from the ravenette, staring blankly at the plain wall in front of them. he hummed affirmatively, and sapnap went back to ordering the food.

"alright," sapnap mumbled, elegantly (or not) clambering over dream to get off the bed, "i'm gonna go ask my mom if i can use her card." dream wished he could keep the ravenette's smile on auto-play.

"alright," the blond nodded, face scrunching in a smile as he mirrored his friend's expression. "can you get me some water?"

"sure, lazy," sapnap mumbled before turning to leave out the room, making his way downstairs with a loud, "mom!"

dream leaned back into the comfort of sapnap's pillows, letting out a long exhale. he cursed himself for acting so weird, but really it's sapnap's fault for being so... sapnap. a few too-short minutes passed before dream heard the ravenette calling his name up the stairs. the syllable sounded best on his lips.