[UNION] Aberration » OMTY 2 || SULAY/ LAYHO

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[Suede, even when I am trying my best... even when I'm doing everything I can for Jongdae... I couldn't make his condition disappear—a-and I have to watch him crying, hurting, suffering, because of his love for me.. I want to wish that he never loved me at all.]

"Minseok, please don't say such things. Do not wish for something you can't undo," Suede replies, glancing at Yixing with a frown, the said omega momentarily side-eyeing Suede's phone before he purses his lips in irritation, reading into Sehun's message after Jongdae's.

[He shouldn't have ever accepted me. It would be better if he had just rejected me until I died with my own condition. Hell, he just had to reject me enough times and harshly enough so that I can be badly triggered and die, right? Why did he have to accept me? He could've just been unmated, free. I want to let him go, Suede.. I want to give him up to a better alpha..]

Suede straightens up in alarm at this. "Minseok. Not again. You can't give him up," Suede utters, before she feels Yixing's hand grabbing her forearm

Yixing's eyes are wide as he gestures for Suede to tone it down, to which Suede easily nods in agreement to, smiling apologetically.

[I don't deserve him,] Minseok whispers, catching both of their attention, shallow breaths clearly heard from the other line. [He's willing to give everything to me.. but I couldn't do the same for him. I can't take care of him like I should, l-like how he needs me to. I couldn't protect him—I know.. I-I know that someone out th-there.. might be able to do that.. able to properly care for Jongdae.. my Jongdae.. make that damned condition disappear i-if I just accept it and let him go.. but I can't! I can't, I can't, I cant.. No.. No, no one else is allowed to have my omega.. No one can take him away.. He's all mine.. He has given himself to me there's no way I'd let—there's no way.. I can't..]

"Minseok.." Suede whispers only so that Minseok can pause, since by now, Minseok is sobbing loudly and Suede is afraid he might trigger his own condition if he takes it too far.

[I don't want to lose him, Suede. He's my everything. I'm only alive to be his. I'm only alive to love him. If I lose him, I-I-I.. I can't lose him..! I do not know what to do! He's hurt. My omega is hurt and it's all because of me..! All he has to say is he doesn't want me anymore.. B-But I know he won't ever do that he's my little omega who loves me too much I do not know what I'd do without him I do not know, I do not know, I don't know I don't know I don't..]

"Minseok, please. You have to calm down first," Suede says slowly, and even Yixing is concerned of Minseok now, but any of Suede's words mustn't have sunk in as Minseok only talks further, voice starting to break at every word in pressure.

[Listen, Suede. I-If he was pregnant, d-do you know.. Do you kn-know? How would I take care of Jongdae and th-the child? I couldn't even t-take care of Jongdae properly, how c-could I take care of the child..! What would I teach them about alphas? Jongdae wasn't ever educated about those matters from his family—all the responsibility is on me, and I can't do it.. I don't know how we can raise the child if Jongdae's with a condition so severe—J-Jongdae would just have a hard time because of me.. Jongdae should've chosen another mate and just left me alone..]

"Minseok," Suede states firmly. "Please. You have to control your thoughts. If you trigger yourself Jongdae is not there to help you."

[Jongdae shouldn't see me like this,] Minseok retorts, hiccuping. [I can do it alone. I can.. I have to be someone he can lean on, someone who he can look up to for help and protection. I am his alpha.. He shouldn't see his alpha breaking apart. I-If I have to die.. I'd die out of his sight, Suede.]