Untold Pain

Chapter 12

Jane's POV.

"Where is my girlfriend?"

Kuya Paolo shook his head as he closed his eyes, his tears were falling down. He was breaking down.

"My sister.." He fell down. "She didn't make it. Maine's dead."

That was the last straw.

Hindi ko na napigilan yung mga luha ko at hinayaan na tumulo ito, but I didn't say anything. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko.

Is this some fucking joke!?

"Where is she?" Mahinahon kong tanong sakanila. "Jane.." Mahinang tawag sakin ni Kuya Paolo but I ignored him and pulled my hand that he and lola was holding.

"Let me see her."

Tito wiped his tears as he nodded. Lumakad sya at agad ko naman syang sinundan, I hear nothing. I can't hear Kuya Paolo's voice even Lola's voice. I don't really know what I am feeling right now.

I didn't even realize that I was infront of Maine already and Tito were beside me. Nakatakip na ng puting kumot ngayon si Maine and I don't know what has gotten to me but I just pulled the blanket and there.

I saw Maine.

I saw my girlfriend laying there.

She was not breathing.

I held her hand. "Maine.." I softly called her.

Bakit? Ano to? Why can't I feel anything? Or do I really felt nothing? Or I was still in denial.

"Maine, wake up. Hey." I smiled as I shook her a little. "Hey, it's okay. I'm right here, you can open your eyes now."

Sunod-sunod na luha yung lumalabas sakin but I didn't care, wala na akong pakealam kung makita ako ni Tito ng ganto, I don't care if I look messy right now. I just don't care.

I just want Maine to wake up.

Hinalikan ko sa noo si Maine as I was caressing her hair. "Love wake up. You said you'll be back to our house right? Come on wake up." I sob. "Please wake up, everyone is outside, waiting for you." I hugged her as I continue to cry. "You said you'll be back."

"Please, let's go home." Pagmamakaawang sabi ko sa ngayon ay malamig nya nang katawan.

Naramdaman kong may humawak sa balikat ko and I know na si Tito yon but I didn't let go of Maine's body, if this is the last time that I would be able to hug her then I would never let go.

"Tito please wait. She promised me. She will wake up." I cried harder. "We will go home."

What happened? Bakit ikaw? Bakit kailangan mangyari to? Why can't I protect you? Just why am I useless!?

"Love!!" I yelled, I cried harder that I feel my throat getting dry, pero wala na akong pakealam. Yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon, I can't explain it, it feels like someone is stabbing me, para bang nasa mataas na building ako ngayon at nalaglag. It feels like someone is stabbing me with a millions of needles, my heart is aching so much that I feel l like dying.

"Maine, we need to go home."

(Present time.)

Yumuko nalang ako as I cried.

Hindi ko alam kung ano na nangyari pagkatapos nun, they said that I fainted. Pag gising ko that time nasa bahay na kami, nagpumilit ako na bumalik sa hospital pero pinagbawalan na ako, inaayos na din daw kasi nila si Maine nun, I couldn't do anything.

Sa loob ng one week na pinaglamayan si Maine, nandun lang ako sa tabi nya. I didn't leave her side even for a moment. I don't want her to be alone, I don't want her to feel lonely.