Untold Pain

Chapter 24

Janella's POV.

"Jake, enough!" My Mother yelled at him.

I turned my gaze on my Mother as I shook my head. "Mom, it isn't true right?" Please tell me it's not true.

How could Jane be the one who has a connection with Maine?

Bakit sya pa? I can't afford to lose her.

Not Jane, the woman I love.

I'm starting to heal again, do I really have to get hurt again?

The world were really cruel. Of all people why it has to be Jane?

I ran away.

I ran away from my family who kept on giving me all the pain that I was feeling right now.

I don't care anymore.

My Father, Grandfather and Uncle cannot accept me for who I am.

My Mother. She hid the fact that Jane is Maine's girlfriend. I've been asking her for the last 5 years who is Maine's girlfriend because I wanted to meet her, I want to at least apologize even though I knew that wasn't going to change anything.

I'm the reason why Maine isn't in her life anymore. I'm probably the reason why she's happy and willing to accept someone in her life again.

And it turns out, I was also the reason why she would became miserable again.

The happiness that I brought to her is also the one who is gonna destroy her when she finds out.

"I'm just saying, Janella. Do you really deserve my best friend?"

I bitterly chuckled when I remembered what Gabbi asked me.

"I guess I know the answer to that now."

I don't deserve to be with Jane.

Everything that I worked for, so I could just move forward and go on with my life is a waste of time.

"Hindi pa din ako magiging masaya. Hindi ako pwedeng sumaya."

Maine, I'm sorry for being happy.

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"Janella, what's wrong?"

I shook my head as I slightly smiled at Julia. Nandito ako sakanila ngayon, I don't think I can go home right now. Or do I even have a home after what happened earlier?

Kanina pa ako tinatanong ni Julia if there is something wrong but I just really don't know what to do or how to explain all of this.

I've just found out that the woman I love is the girlfriend of my best friend, who was dead right now because of my carelessness and selfishness.

I leaned my head on Julia's shoulder as my tears fell down. "J-julia." I sob. I'm trying to not cry infront of Julia but I just can't really stop my tears from falling and I know Julia can hear my sobs.

"Hmm?" She hummed. She didn't look at me which I am grateful for. "Did I made a big mistake for coming into Jane's life?"

If I did. I really apologize for coming into Jane's life. I ruined it.

"Do you even see how happy Jane is?" She slightly chuckled. "That girl is in love with you. At nakikita ko kung gaano ka kahalaga sakanya. She's happy that you are by her side." She held my hand as she took a deep breath.

"Why are you always doubting yourself?" Malungkot na sabi nya sakin.

I cried.

"J-julia. I k-killed Maine." I hate myself. "Maine is J-jane's girlfriend. I took away Jane's happiness from her."