Untold Pain

Chapter 31

Janella's POV.

2 days had passed and I still haven't heard from Jane. Kahit sila Mac hindi nila alam kung nasaan si Jane, we tried to contact her but her phone was off, pumunta kami sa bahay nila pero wala sya doon kahit yung pamilya nya nag aalala na sakanya.

Pinuntahan ko yung mga lugar na posibleng nandun si Jane pero wala akong nakita, hindi ko sya mahanap. Sumubok na din akong pumunta sa puntod ni Maine nagbabakasakali na nandun si Jane pero wala din sya doon. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko pa sya hahanapin.

No one can contact her.

I know that she was hurt. I knew that.

But not knowing where she is, it's been killing me, all those minutes, hours and days that I haven't heard from her, it's killing me.

I just want to see her. I just want to know that she is safe then I'll never bother her.

I won't explain anymore.

She would only think that it was an excuse for me to relieve my guilt for what happened.

"Janella. You're here."

Kilala ko tong boses na to. Hindi ko man gustuhin na makita sya, wala akong choice. I want to know why he did that.

"Elmo." I coldly said.

Yesterday, he asked me to meet him in this park where we first met. Hindi ako pumayag nung una, kasi para saan pa? Bakit kailangan pa namin magkita? Pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa nya?

Pero gustong-gusto ko itanong sakanya kung bakit kailangan nyang gawin yon. Kung hindi pa ba sapat yung mga pananakit na ginawa nya sakin noon. Kung ano ba yung nagawa kong malaking kasalanan sakanya para ganto yung iganti nya sakin.

He sat beside me as he slightly smiled. "Still cold as ever huh?" I clenched my fist as I was trying to calm myself down.

"Let's cut to the chase. Why did you ask to meet me?" I asked, not looking at him. Seeing him makes me remember all the bad things that I experienced.

"Janella, mahal pa din kita." He seriously said as I bitterly chuckled. I turned my gaze on him as I shook my head. "Naririnig mo ba yung sarili mo Elmo?" I scoffed. "Mahal mo ako? Mahal mo ako pero nagawa mo sakin yon? Must I remind you every single thing that you've done to me?"

Did he really expect me to believe his lies? He still loves me? He only love the idea of me.

He tried to hold my hand but I pulled it as I glared at him. "Janella, maniwala ka naman sakin. Sorry, alam kong nagkamali ako, pero nakaraan na yon kalimutan na natin yon."

Napaka-daling sabihin na kalimutan nalang namin yung mga nangyari, alam nya ba kung ano yung nawala sakin dahil sakanya? Kung ano yung mga naging trauma ko dahil sakanya?

I shook my head. "You've hurt me, psychically, mentally and emotionally. You were never there for me, you only love the idea of me Elmo. You love me because you knew what position my family holds, mahal mo ako kasi alam mong mabilis akong mauto at nagpapakatanga ako sayo." I took a deep breath as I showed him my wrist. "I tried to kill myself because of you. These scars are proofs of how much you've hurt me."

I felt my tears fell down. "Jane came into my life. You saw how happy I am whenever I'm with her. Nakita mo kung paano ko sya minahal, kung paano ko buksan yung puso ko ulit. Kung paano ako nag heal. But you ruined it." He stood up as he angrily yelled at me. "Stop this nonsense!" He scoffed. "Nagagalit ka? I only told her the truth that you've been keeping from her. You lied to her Janella, so what do you even expect? She abandoned you. I'm the only one who stays in your life."