Untold Pain

Chapter 18

Janella's POV.

"Because I want to. Because it's you, Jea."

I frowned when I heard what she said. Anong ibig nyang sabihin? Ayokong mag expect, but does that mean we share the same feelings?

She smiled as she wipe tears. "You need to eat so you will have an energy when you do those pile of papers." She chuckled as she gave me the spoon and nodded.

Kinuha ko nalang yung kutsara at nag proceed kumain. Now, I am sure.

Jane, I really do like you.

I do not need to be afraid right? Hindi ko na kailangan matakot kay Dad, if he doesn't accept me, I do not need to force him.

As long as there is one person who will accept me for who I am, then that is enough.

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"So. I heard that Jane was here." Pang aasar na tanong sakin ni Julia.

"You saw her. What do you mean heard." I rolled my eyes.

Nakita nya dito si Jane. Sakto kasi na paalis na si Jane ayun naman yung pagdating ni Julia, so nakita nya din yung dalang food ni Jane. And she's been annoying me. Dito magaling tong si Julia sa pang aasar sakin.

"Still, she was here." She poked my stomach and I glared at her. "When? Kelan mo balak mag confess?" I sighed. "I don't know."

Yes, Julia knows about my feelings towards Jane. Alam na ata nito lahat yung nangyayari sa buhay ko eh. She's the only one who I can tell this. I mean, I can tell Mom but I don't know, I'm just not ready to tell her that I like Jane, because I am sure that she will keep on pestering me about it.

Medyo nagsisi din ako na sinabi ko kay Julia, now look what she is doing.

"Come on! You like her since we were 2nd year college. Ang tagal ko nang naghihintay." I glared at her. "At bakit ikaw yung naghihintay?"

And what did she mean by 2nd year college? Gusto ko na ba talaga si Jane noon? Maybe I was just in denial at that time. I mean, seriously hindi ko maisip dati na magkakagusto ako kay Jane. Laman ba naman ng complaint yan galing sa mga teachers eh. Lagi kasi syang hindi nakikinig sa mga lessons ng teacher, but somehow she passed all of her subjects. Masipag naman daw kasi gumawa tong si Jane and if she wants to she will definitely participate in the class, minsan lang talaga parang may topak yung ulo nito.

Julia shrugged. "If you don't confess now, someone might confess to her." She gasped. "And imagine, kapag may nagconfess sakanya, syempre ii-entertain nya yon, or kahit i-reject nya yon syempre yung tao na yon hindi basta susuko, and then what? Ma-iinlove si Jane sakanya and sa huli magiging sila." She stared at me and shook her head. "And ano ka? Magiging hopia ka!"

I smack her head as I glared at her. "Shut up!" This is idiot is making me overthink. No one will confess to Jane. I mean, napapansin ko naman na walang umaaligid sakanya na mga babae, I do not need to worry about that. And kung sa lalaki naman, Jane hates them. Napansin ko yon, eh parang allergy nga ata yon sa lalaki, except sakanila Joshua.

She laughed as she rubbed her head. "See, just the thought of it makes you feel nervous right?" She shook her head. "Nasa denial stage pa din ba?" She chuckled as she continue to laugh. Malala na talaga tong si Julia, malapit na masiraan ng bait.

"Why don't you focus on what you're doing instead?" Inis na sabi ko dito.

Between Julia and Maine. Si Julia talaga yung pinaka-mapang asar while Maine, she's more focus on pangungulit sakin. I'm introverted, actually silang dalawa yung nagtry na makipag-friends sakin and I'm glad they did.