Untold Pain

Chapter 23

Janella's POV.

"Yeah, I still can't believe it."

I'm on the phone right now, I was talking to Ate Glaiza and Rhian. I told them about my relationship with Jane and how I confessed and eventually got embarrassed right after.

I mean, who wouldn't? I literally ran after her just to tell her about my feelings, it can wait but I still ran after her because I was worried about her best friend Gabbi, who liked Mac, might steal Jane from me. How ridiculous.

But I was glad that I told her about my feelings. Who would have thought that she feels the same way? Never in a million years that I would have thought that Jane and I would end up together. But look at us now, we're idiots in love.

"I'm so happy for the two of you." Ate Rhian said as I heard Ate Glaiza chuckled. "It's all over Jane's face that she likes you, I felt like the only ones who didn't know about it, is herself and you."

That's right. I really didn't think that Jane would feel the same way towards me. She made it very clear that she hates me. I guess, there are times that she also made it clear that she likes me but neither of us noticed it.

"So, what's your plan now?" Napaisip naman ako sa tanong ni Ate Glaiza. I know that she is referring to our family. Me, coming out to my family is the biggest disappointment to them. Specially to my Father.

"I don't know." Jane can introduce me to her family without any problem nor hesitation, but it's not the same for me.

Yes, my Mother knew that I was gay and she supports me, she loves me. But I don't think it will be the same for my Father.

"Janella. Ikaw yung makikisama kay Jane. Ikaw yung nagmamahal, ikaw yung pipili ng makakasama mo sa buhay." I heard Ate Glaiza took a deep breath. "If I didn't fought for our love back then, maybe right now I'm still trapped inside the cage that our Grandfather built. Jane is your priority right now."

Ate Glaiza is right. No matter what I do Grandfather and Father would still be disappointed in me. Na-disappoint na sakin si Lolo nung nangyari yung aksidente na yon, he blamed me, he said that I am nothing but a disappointment to our family.

So, what more could I have lose right now?

I love Jane and the right thing to do right now is to tell my parents about her.

I'm willing to risk everything, if it's for Jane.

I need to step out of my dark comfort zone. The comfort zone that I thought is my heart's protection. But I found out that the only one who can protect my heart is myself. I need to step out if I want to keep Jane with me.

"I'll tell them."

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"Janella? Why are you here? You should be ready, we're having a dinner with your Grandfather and Uncle."

Nandito ako ngayon sa loob ng office ni Dad, I was planning to tell him that I would tell something important later at our dinner. Nag set ng dinner si Lolo and he wanted me to come, this is the first time that he would meet me after that incident, even Uncle refuse to see me after that 'embarrassment' that I brought to our family.

"Dad, I want to tell something important later to our dinner." He raised his eyebrow as I continued. "It is very important and I want Grandfather to hear me as well." He nodded. "Siguraduhin mo lang na maayos yung sasabihin mo mamaya Janella. Don't embarrass me." Seryosong sabi nya tsaka umalis.

I sighed as I walked out of his office. Dad cares about his image more than anything. He always wanted to make my Grandfather proud of him, he always compete with Uncle. I don't even know what he is trying to prove.