Untold Pain

Chapter 17

Janella's POV.

"Tara na, I'm hungry." Julia said while pulling me. "Julia, I told you I need to finish this." Etong babae na to akala mo hindi Vice President eh. "And you were suppose to help me. This is also your job." I rolled my eyes.

She chuckled as she stood up. "I'll just bring you food here. Alam mo naman na mahal na mahal kita, kaya mo na yan. Bye!"

Iniwan nanaman ako ni Julia with these bunch of papers na kailangan kong gawin. Seriously, si Julia yung nag volunteer sa professor namin na sya na daw yung bahalang gumawa nito, but in the end, ako yung gumawa. 50 papers lang ata yung ginawa dito ni Julia then she said she was tired and hungry, habang ako nakaka-200 papers na, but I didn't complain. Minsan talaga ang sarap sampalin ng babaeng yon.

I sighed as I stretched my arms. "I think I'm dying." Call me dramatic but I really felt like I was dying. Magvo-volunteer nalang si Julia, eto pa talaga yung naisip nyang gawin. Napaka-galing talaga.

Kagabi tinext ko si Jane regarding sa project namin and wala pang ilang segundo nakapag reply kaagad sya. She said that she will help me to edit it, and honestly kaya ko naman talaga i-edit mag isa yon, madali lang naman yon but she insisted, she said that it is also her project and we are partners.

I wonder what will happen to us after this? Pagkatapos ng project na to we will not have a reason to contact each other.

If I confess to her after I figure out my feelings, I wonder what will change.

I heard that Jane had a girlfriend once. So, I'm pretty sure that she's not straight.

But I'm worried about her feelings. What if she rejects me? And worse, avoid me.

I'm not really expecting anything from Jane. Once I figure out my feelings, I'm going to confess, that is all. I just want her to be aware.

If she doesn't like me, that is totally fine. But I don't want her avoiding me. Just the thought of it, feels suffocating.

Right now, one thing I am sure of is that I'm not straight and that would be a big disappointment for Dad and my Grandfather. I do not need to worry about Mom because she supports every decision I made and she loves me for who I am. I'm just worried that I might disappoint Dad again.

Uncle Jake, Grandfather and my Father abandoned and disowned Ate Glaiza just for loving a woman like her. They could've accept her. They said she was a disappointment.

Matapang si Ate Glaiza and may lakas sya ng loob para ipaglaban si Ate Rhian, but I don't think I can ever do that. What if malaman nila Dad na gusto ko si Jane? I don't ever think they could've accept that.

They will see it as a disgusting love.

Just like how they see Ate Glaiza and Ate Rhian's love for each other.

I heard the door opened, I turned around and saw Julia.

She's not alone though.
She's with Joshua.

When they did get so close?

"We brought food!" Sabi ni Julia habang itinataas yung hawak nyang food.

Joshua turned his gaze on me as he smiled. "Uhm, hi." I nodded as I turned my gaze on Julia, she knew exactly why I was looking at her. I was really confuse right now why Joshua is here. And why they're together.

"Actually, dinalhan lang kita ng food pero hindi ako dito magla-lunch." I raised my eyebrow. "Joshua asked me to have a lunch with him. And he's the one paying, so why not?" She continued.

Of course, she would go with Joshua. Basta libre walang aatrasan to, and willing pa akong iwan nito kapag inaya sya at ililibre sya.

"Dinalhan lang kita ng pagkain, I don't want you to starve my love." Pang aasar na sabi nito sakin habang hinihila si Joshua palabas ng room.