Untold Pain

Chapter 13

Jane's POV.

"So if ever na mawala ako, you need to move forward okay?"

Natawa naman ako sa sinabi nya. "Hindi ka mawawala so I don't need a reason to move forward without you."

"Well, who knows, hindi natin hawak yung tadhana." Maine shrugged.

I kept silent and think about what she said. Totoo na hindi namin hawak yung tadhana but I don't want to experience what her mother experienced. I don't want to lose Maine.

"Jane." She quietly said.

I turned my gaze on her and nagulat ako nung kiniss nya ako sa cheeks, I feel myself blushed at the sudden action of hers, I was about to talk when she spoke.

"I guess that's my answer." I was confused, when she saw how clueless I am, she chuckled. "My answer is yes. You're my girlfriend now, Jane."

Those words of her changed us forever.

(Present time.)

"Ma, thank you." I smiled as I wiped my tears.

I'll slowly accept it now.

"I think I'm ready to move forward."

I suddenly think about Janella as I slowly smiled.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit but I feel comfortable around her. And somehow I want to get to know her, I want to get close to her.

I hugged my mother. "Thank you for always supporting me, Mama." I sincerely said. "You're always welcome, I only want what's best for you."

"Ayun oh." Narinig ko si Zaijian, I was about to pull out the hug when I felt someone joined the hug. "Tada! Sama kami ni lola sa group hug ha." Natawa naman si Mama at lola dahil kay Zaijian.

I didn't realize it until now. Hindi ko alam na may mga tao palang nakasuporta pa din sakin, I didn't realize that my family are still aware of my pain, I thought I hid it well, but they can still see through me. And I was glad because they're here for me.

I'm still lucky because I have them.

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"Totoo ba to? Late si Mac?" I glanced at my wrist watch and shrugged. "Technically, hindi pa sya late." Tumingin naman sakin si Joshua. "Talaga ba? It's already 7am, and pumapasok yon ng 6am. Alam mo naman na early bird yon."

Joshua is right naman, kahit ako medyo nagtaka, Mac is never late. Pumapasok yon palagi ng 6am sharp, kahit 7:30am pa naman yung pasok namin, masyadong early bird yon, pero ngayon hindi. Nauna na kami dito ni Joshua and kanina pa namin sya hinihintay dito sa tapat ng locker namin, napakatagal naman nun, ano kayang meron?

"Wait, speaking of Mac. Ayan na si bakla." Natawa naman ako kay Joshua. Minsan talaga pinipilit nyang bakla si Mac dahil since birth wala pang nagiging girlfriend yon, akala mo naman sya meron na, eh hopia nga sya kay Julia paano kasi ayaw magconfess.

I turned around only for me to see Mac with Janella, they were laughing. Wait. Janella is laughing? Ang saya-saya nya tignan ngayon while her full attention is on Mac. I don't really know what came over me, I just realized na nasa harapan na nila ako ngayon. Napansin naman ako ni Mac at tumigil sa paglalakad, tumingin din sakin si Janella while raising her one eyebrow.

Tignan mo, kanina tuwang-tuwa sya ngayon parang biglang naging bad mood, nakataas yung isa nyang kilay habang tinitignan ako.

"Jane." Tawag sakin ni Mac. Tumingin naman ako sakanya. "Mac, late ka na." Hinila ko sya sa tabi ko at tinignan si Janella. "Ms. President, late ka na din." Masungit na sabi ko sakanya sabay hinila ko si Mac papunta sa kinaroroonan ni Joshua na nakita kong nakatayo habang nakangisi, nakadrugs ba to? Anong nginingisi-ngisi nito?