Untold Pain

Chapter 30

Ito na yung kinakatakutan ni Janella na mangyari.

Nalaman na ni Jane yung totoo pero hindi galing sakanya, galing kay Elmo. Galing sa taong walang ibang ginawa kung hindi saktan lang sya.

Janella stared at Jane's eyes.

She needed to see something.

Something, that will tell her that Jane love her.

Some reassurance.

But the only thing that she was seeing right now is tears, anger and hatred.

Janella tried to walk closer to Jane but the latter took a step backward.

"You lied to me." Jane angrily said.

Did she really lied to Jane?

Janella couldn't process anything. All she wants to do right now is to hold Jane's hand and hug her, and tell her how much she was sorry.

But that wouldn't change anything.

Janella sob.

Too heavy.

"Jane, I didn't mean it. I wa--"

"Enough!" Jane yelled.

The only thing that Janella can hear right now is Jane's pained voice.

She's starting to think just how much she caused a pain towards Jane. Jane glared at her as her tears were still falling down.

"Alam mo kung sino si Maine, alam mo kung sino ako. Pero wala kang ginawa o sinabi man lang, hinayaan mo akong maniwala na mahal mo talaga ako, hinayaan mo akong mahulog sayo!" Wala nang ibang maramdaman ngayon si Jane kung hindi galit at pagkamuhi kay Janella.

Lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman nya ngayon ay dahil kay Janella.

"Bakit? Bakit kailangan mong gawin yon?" Nanghihinang tanong ni Jane.

"Gusto kong sabihin sayo, nung nalaman ko gustong-gusto kong sabihin sayo, magpaliwanag--"

"But you didn't." Jane bitterly chuckled. "You fucking lied to me! Masarap ba na panoorin yung katangahan ko? Habang magkasama ba tayo naiisip mo ba kung ano yung pwede kong maramdaman!? I opened my heart again, just for you. Pero eto lang pala yung gagawin mo."

Janella took a step closer to Jane. It was raining hard that she can't even hear anything, except for Jane's voice that is full of pain. And she knows that it's her fault.

"I tried. Trust me Jane. I really tried." She sobbed. "Naghahanap ako ng tamang oras para sabihin sayo, ng tamang pagkakataon pero hindi ko magawa."

Sirado yung isip ni Jane ngayon, para bang lahat ng sinasabi ngayon ni Janella ay excuses nya nalang kasi nalaman na ni Jane yung totoo sa ibang tao.

"Don't lie to me. You did that because of your guilt." Janella shook her head. "Please give me a chance to apologize for--"

Jane took a step backwards. "Apologize? It's fucking too late Janella. Live with guilt forever, you don't deserve any forgiveness."

The world were really cruel when it comes to the two of them. Those pains and sufferings that were untold, they were slowly turning into anger and hatred.

Anger towards Janella.

"You don't deserve my love for you." Janella's eyes widened when she heard what Jane had said.

Hindi sya makapaniwala na masasabi ni Jane sakanya yon. She knew Jane doesn't mean what she said but it's hurting her, she's only human who has feelings.