Untold Pain

Chapter 26

Janella's POV.

This is the first time that I am here with Julia in Maine's tomb. I never imagined that I would come here after that accident.

Para sakin kasi once na pumunta ako at dinalaw ko si Maine dito, tinatanggap ko na talaga na wala na sya, na hindi na sya babalik kahit ano pang gawin ko.

I guess, I already accepted the reality.

Natanggap ko yon sa tulong ng mga sumusuporta at nagmamahal sakin. My Mother and Julia. They're the ones who encourage me.

"Menggay, we're here." Ngayon ko nalang ulit narinig na binanggit ni Julia yung nickname ni Maine. I haven't hear that in years.

"And guess who's here. It's your favorite, Janella." I softly chuckled when I heard what Julia said. I kneeled down beside Julia as I stared at her tombstone.

"We brought your favorite flower and food. Kamusta ka dyan?" Mahina kong sabi.

I feel like any moment my tears would just fell down. This is also exactly why I don't want to visit Maine, it's hard to pretend that I am fine even though I am not.

"Masaya ka naman dyan noh? Ano, napatunayan mo na ba na ang bakla ay pwede sa langit?" Pagbibirong sabi ni Julia.

I chuckled as I nugde her. "Shut up."

I know exactly why Julia is doing this. She's trying to cheer me up, she knew that I am on the verge of breaking down.

Julia took a deep breath as she knock at Maine's tombstone. "Pero okay ka na dyan diba? Sorry, almost 2 years din akong hindi nakapunta sayo." She sighed.

I know that the reason why she can't come to Maine is because of me. She's been taking care of me, making sure that I won't lose my way and eventually gave up trying and stop going on with my life. Which she succeeded, I'm finally moving on and go on with my life.

"Menggay." I softly smiled. "I'm sorry for being late. I've been stuck in the past. Akala ko kasi kapag bumisita ako sayo hindi mo ako matatanggap." I bitterly chuckled. "Kasi hindi ako natanggap ng mga tao sa paligid ko, except for Mom and Julia."

Maine knows how my family is. She knew exactly what I've been experiencing and what pressure do I have when it comes to my family.

"I-i've met your girlfriend." I felt my tears fell down. "As you said in the past, she's an amazing person. I'm sure you know what kind of relationship I have with her right now, you're always watching me, I know that."

Alam kong palagi akong binabantayan ni Maine, I know that even in the afterlife she was still worried about me.

"I fell in love with her." I fell in love with everything about Jane. "I never thought that the right person that you want for me, is Jane. The woman you also once loved."

We fell in love with the same person. But with the different million reasons. And if ever that reason is gone, I would still love her.

"I'm finally happy now." I felt Julia held my hand, I turned my gaze on her as she smiled at me. "I'm with Julia, my Mother. Jane's friends are becoming my friends." I wiped my tears.

"And more importantly, Jane is with me."

We stayed for a couple of hours until we both decided that it's time to go home. Mag aasikaso pa ako mamaya dahil pupunta ako sa bahay nila Jane, I'm finally going to meet her family.

We both said our goodbyes to Maine and promised that we will come back and visit her more often.

Palabas na sana kami ng gate ng sementeryo nang makasalubong namin yung parents ni Maine.