Clarity (A SANDRO MARCOS FANFICTION)

36. Ends

PRESENT

*yung ganap after ng prologue

AIRI

I stayed calm and collected as I sat down in that hospital bed.

Sandro Marcos' presence will not affect me. I swore to myself over and over again that if I see him again, I will not be the Airi he once knew.

Years have passed. Things have changed. Sandwo and Cinnamon became a thing in the pass and that's the end of it.

"Where's Simon?" I asked him calmly.

"Why are you looking for Simon?" He asked.

"Siya yung nasa emergency contact ko. It's only natural I would look for him."

His brows furrowed. "I'm here Airi."

Gusto kong humugot at magsabi ng masasamang words pagkatapos ko siyang suntukin kanina sa harap ng HQ ni BBM pero wag na. He's not worth the laway.

"Bakit ka ba nandito? Sana hinayaan mo na lang ako sa sidewalk. May tutulong naman sa akin na others." I told him.

"I'm here because I care." He replied.

Pinaningkitan ko siya ng mata. "Well you're two years late Sandro Marcos. You had time to redeem and explain yourself while I waited but you didn't and just let things slip away. Cool off ba hanggang ngayon? Tama na Sandro. Ako na makikipag-break sa'yo,"

Hindi siya umimik. He just stood there.

So I continued. Bahala na kung umiyak ako. What's important for me was to tell him what I have felt while trying to wait for him to come around.

"I waited for you. For weeks. For months. I tried to communicate with you. I did everything even to the point of giving up my job just to come here and talk to you. Just to fix myself from what you have made me feel. Ang sarap sa una Sandro. Ang saya saya natin. We were a pair. We did everything together, planned everything together. Sabi nga ni Simon dati, kasal na lang kulang eh. We fought but still made up. Lumayo ka lang. Umuwi ka lang ng Pilipinas, biglang nawala. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan. You never gave me any reason or any explanation of your actions. Iniwan mo ako sa ere. You made me fall for you until I became too attached that I couldn't even save myself. You taught me how to love and how to hate love in the process."

"Airi-"

"I'm not done," I cut him off, wiping my tears. "I thought you'd care when I got sick or almost died. But walang Sandro na nagparamdam kung okay lang ba ako. Kung buhay pa ba ako," I felt anger and pain. "I tried my best to reach you out. I even went home for your birthday to surprise you but guess what? I was the one who got surprised. Ang saya saya mo while I was miserable myself. You can sleep so good at night without thinking about my situation. People told me to understand you. I did without realizing na baka it was what you want all along. You just stayed because na-guilty ka sa promises mo na hindi mo magawa," I Wiped another load of tears. Barado na ilong ko at pakiramdam ko mugto na mata ko but I cared less.

He has seen the worst in me anyways.

"Please go away. Thank you for bringing me here." I just told him.

He looked apologetic but nodded and left.

I curled up on my bed and cried silently.

Akala ko wala na.

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SANDRO

I sat down in my car feeling bad about Airi. It hurt to see her cry and it hurt that I ignored her, only to realize it has been years already ever since I cut our communication. I opened my phone and for the first time in years, opened her messages from facebook, email and instagram.

October 31

You asked for a cool off today. The first thing I said to myself was Ayoko and started wailing and crying in that room I was in. How can you say something so out of the blue? I couldn't handle it or gulp the idea of a cool off. I don't have anyone here with me but myself. Simon is here but it doesn't help sometimes. How am I supposed to be in aplace where my pahinga and sandalan is not with me. How am I suppose to sleep well at night without crying about the things we are going through. We had plans. We have envisioned ourselves in those moments. We pave our way through it and not the other way around. Please love. Pag-usapan natin 'to.

November 7,

We've been there, From the first argument. To the second and so on. We've passed through them. I love you and I have realized it now. And maybe it was too late for me to realize but I love you. So much Sandro that it hurts.

November 8,

Hello Love! How are you? What are you up to today?

November 27,

I miss you

December 1,

Happy December 1st!

December 24,

Hey. Merry Christmas, Sandwo. I hope you have a good one. I gave Simon your present. Did you receive it?

I stopped.

It hurt reading them.

Even I do not know why I chose to ignore rather than to face her. I was so tired from my work when I first entered the congress. I had my responsibilities and priorities. Airi didn't came first. I tried to make it up to her on the times I failed to call. Until she kept asking me questions, asking me to talk and everything and I couldn't take it.

The cool off wasn't suppose to last for years but it slipped my mind.

Now I feel like shit.

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Ble