Clarity (A SANDRO MARCOS FANFICTION)

38. Clock

AIRI

Vinny and I arrived at the beach almost sunset. He booked a room with two beds nearby. We also bought groceries at some mall we passed by a while ago including clothes since biglaan ang pagbaba namin sa Elyu.

I was wearing a nude colored bikini while he was only wearing his shorts. If I was me years ago, I would go nuts na nakita si Vinny na half naked but right now, I've had enough of the Marcos' brother's.

Joke. Di naman porke may ginawa si Sandro and kasalanan nilang lahat. It's just really hard to accept it kahit taon na ang lumipas.

"Sandro was once my sandalan," I spoke. Vinny was looking at me with curiosity on his face. I smiled and nginuso yung dalawang magjowa sa tabi namin. We can hear them talk about their work and how happy they were to finally have a vacation. "I would tell it him whenever pinag-iinitan ako sa work, kung pagod ako, kung nahihirapan ako and he would just hug me. Lahat ng pagod ko tanggal eh. Just one gesture from him, masaya na ako." I sighed.

"Then he changed." Vinny noted.

I nodded. "He did."

"What if you meet again Airi, anong gagawin mo? Because honestly speaking it's been years but still, you're wounded. As Simon always says, walang closure and you need closure to be at peace."

"Nagkita naman kami. Kahapon. And I cried my heart out. I realized hindi ko kaya."

"But at some point, you have to let him go. Including your memories with him or whatever things na nagpipigil sa'yo para kalimutan siya, until then, I think, you will be healed."

"Or maybe, he's my cure." I smiled sadly.

Vincent Macoy laughed.

"Depends if what kind of cure you think he is."

Tumawa na din ako.

"Cure sa pagiging tigang ng two and a half years." I joked.

Humalakhak si Vinny.

"Oh Airi."

I rolled my eyes at him and opened the beer we bought. Sosyal pa ang loko bumili ng ice box at dun nilagay yung mga alak namin. Sabagay mas masarap kapag malamig.

"So, what's your story?" I asked him after two cans of beer.

"Still find me interesting?"

I made a face.

"Ayoko na sa inyong mga Marcos ha. Tigilan niyo ako. Si Simon gusto siya na lang daw ang gamitin ko. Ikaw nilalandi mo ako."

He laughed again.

"Well. I'm just Vinny. With or without my surname I'm still me. Apparently some woman do not want to associate herself with me because of my surname. It was okay before but when my pops said he was running for president, things got messy."

"Famous niyo daw kasi."

"It wasn't my fault na pinanganak ako na Marcos. As well as Si and Sands." He replied, shrugging his shoulders.

"Right."

"Have you heard that Sands is running for congressman in Ilocos Norte?" Vinny asked while he sipped his beer.

I shook my head.

"Nope. But I kinda had an idea he would be someone in the future," Vinny looked at me. "I did not manifest it though. But there was something about him before na which made me think na it might not work out between us because he has goals, I have my own."

"And it would not meet?"

"Yeah. Something like that." I replied bitterly.

It just came to me. That the things I have guessed before is happening right now. It's always family, career before love when it comes to him. Hindi ko naman siya masisisi because he had those plan before I came to his life. It's just that I have unanswered questions.

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After eating some grilled seafood at a nearby restaurant, Vinny and I went back to the beach side with the cooler na dala dala namin. Our beers were also refilled since we bought new ones from the store.

I will admit, mabilis akong malasing but drinking with Vinny is so different. Mas nalalasing ako sa usapan at mga ngiti niya kaysa sa alak na iniinom namin.

"Where were you before? I went home with Sandro and Simon pero wala ka. They said you have exams or something pero duda naman ako na mag-eexam ka pasko." I asked him.

Tumawa siya.

"I was with the woman I told you about. She wanted us to spend the Christmas together as a couple kasi bago lang kami so I had to lie."

"Pero iniwan ka pa rin."

Vinny shrugged is shoulders. "Her loss not mine."

I giggled. "His loss not mine." I mimicked, pertaining to Sandro.

He laughed. "Have you ever thought of revenge?" He asked.

"Minsan. Kapag tinitignan ko si Simon gusto kong patulan offer niya pero minsan nakokonsensya din ako." I admitted.

"Wouldn't it be interesting if we take revenge, Airi?" He asked. His face was serious this time. Fucking serious. Not your usually smiled faced Vincent Macoy.

I gulped.

"Paano?" I found myself asking.

He smiled.

"Make them pay the price for leaving us. Make them regret of they did. Make them feel what we felt during those times we had no one but ourselves."

"Hindi ka ba nakokonsesnya? Kapatid mo pa rin si Sandro." I reminded him.

"Sometimes it doesn't matter anymore right? I mean, we gave them our hundred percent but they give this to us in return," I only looked at him. "It's just an idea Airi. You can say no."

I grimed a smile while looking at him. He is serious.

"What do we get out of it? Pagkatapos ng revenge, what's next?"

Vinny shrugged his shoulders. "Whatever happens, happens."

He lit up his cigarette then smoked. Napansin niya yatta na nakatingin ako so he offered it. I haven't smoked in years but I took it.

Ah. That feeling. And that memory.

"My first memory with Sandro was sharing a smoke with him." I told Vinny.

He laughed. "Now you have a new memory and it's not with Sandro," He looked at me. "Indirect kiss, don't you think?"

Putanginang bunso ng Marcos nilalandi ako.

"Magtigil ka nga."

"Was just teasing you. You can call it as my coping mechanism."

"Coping mechanism my ass." I rolled my eyes.

"You have a nice ass." He smirked.

My eyes widened. "Vinny nga!"

Tumawa ulit siya. "Seriously Airi. Think about what I told you. Wala naman mawawala sa atin if we do it. We gave our hundred percent to them until wala nang natira sa atin."

"What if we fall? What if we end up getting trapped in this plan you have in mind?" I asked him.

"Then we'll accept the consequences of our actions." He answered.

That is what scares me the most. Consequences of our actions.

I might end up forgetting Sandro. But I might also end up falling for Vincent Macoy in return.

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