𝓤𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓵 𝓘 𝓯𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 || 𝓡𝓮𝓶𝓾𝓼 𝓛𝓾𝓹𝓲𝓷

No fucking way...

"Don't lie to me" he shouted and slammed his fist against the table.

"Okay, I was out of the castle" I whispered

"And what did I told you? Not to go out of the castle. I have let you do whatever you have wanted. I may be now the worst father in the world, for not letting my daughter out, but put yourself into my position: there is a murderer on the loose, my daughter escapes out of the castle- I am going to sleep knowing that you are safe. And what if the morning comes and I would find out you aren't in the castle or worse...I would find out that you are dead"

I realized he wasn't mad. He was hurt.

"I know you say it won't do anything, but I am so sorry dad" I whispered "I broke our trust and I feel so shit now. I just- I was mad at you yesterday, I was so stupid. I would do anything to take back the time"

"You know I want only the best for you, I don't want you to get hurt. I may be cold to others, but you- you are my little princess and always will be it. I hate to see you growing up. I hate that I didn't spend so much time with you when you were a kid. But I have always loved you so much, you know that. I want you to be safe"

We never had such an emotional conversations.

"You are a good dad, don't you ever think differently" I said and walked closer to him "I am sorry for breaking our trus-"

"You didn't broke it. Promise me you will listen to me next time"

"I promise"

"Come here" he opened his arms and I hugged him tightly "I thought I got a heart attack when I heard you were out of the cast-"

"Where did you even heard it?" I asked and pulled away slightly.

"Do you really want to know?" He whispered

"Yes!"

"Theodore"

"What" I gasped and took a step back.

"Sit down" he sighed and sat down in his chair. I took a seat in front of his table. "Theodore is my old friend" he said and I groaned, hiding my face into my hands.

"You were so young when you last saw him"

"No fucking way" I groaned "no fucking way"

"Over everything I am glad it wasn't some idiot you ran into, but really? Theodore? He is twenty years older-"

"You know damn well that I like men older than me"

"I am trying to forget it and think you like guys in your age" he whispered

"How- when- I don't even know what to ask" i pinched the bridge of my nose

"Write to him, I am not the person to answer your questions"

"Right, sorry, I'll go"

Before he could say anything, I was out of the room.

"Hi,

It's my third time writing this letter and I have no idea what to say. I think theres not much to say either. I am scared of what you are thinking or feeling. Scared, that you are feeling disgusted. If so, then I am truly sorry.
I am just shocked. I completely understand if you don't want to write me back, see me or talk to me ever again. I would understand you. To find out you slept with a girl you used to take care of- I can't even imagine what you would have felt.
Just so you know- I am not feeling disgusted or anything. I don't think of you differently. You are still the same sweet Theodore who bandaged my knuckles after throwing some bloke out of the bar.
I should just stop writing. Maybe you won't even read it.

Or was yesterday a goodbye?

V.S"

I watched as my owl flew away. I sighed and closed my eyes. I looked at the time on my wall.

16:45

"Fuck"

I rubbed my eyes with the palms of my hand and laid down on the bed.

But I got up after a second, I was so hungry. I made my way to the kitchens. I still had an hangover.

The elves in here already knew what I wanted. The made me tea and gave me all the crap they had- mostly chips.

I thanked them, took the basket what they made me and made my way back to my dorm. I filled the bath with water, applied face mask on my face and then took a relaxing bath for an hour.

When I got out I dried my body with a towel and wrapped another dry towel into my hair. I put on my bathrobe and made my way to my bedroom.

I lit candles and put on my Queen record player.

I opened the food basked and poured myself tea, thank Merlin for heating spells. I ate all the crap I had and just a took a night to myself.

The chips and grape's didn't really fill my stomach, so I made my way after six to the Great Hall.

Everyone were already there. I got quite a few looks from each table. I sat down between Morgan and Lucian who didn't say a word.

"What's wrong?" I asked them

"It's a question we should ask from you"

"There's nothing wrong" it came out more like a question.

"What did Snape want? He was really mad in the morning"

"Oh, uh,nothing. We talked our things through and now everything is okay"

"Well that's good"

We continued with eating. What got everyones attention was an owl what flew into the Great Hall, screeching.

Mail day was only on Sundays.

I recognized it as my owl, it had a letter attached to his leg. He dropped the letter in front of me, and when he got his treats, he was off again.

I looked at the letter, Theo's name was on it. I looked up to the Head Table and nodded to dad, letting him know that it was his letter.

He nodded back.

This night I didn't even saw that Lupin and Vincent were missing.