𝓤𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓵 𝓘 𝓯𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 || 𝓡𝓮𝓶𝓾𝓼 𝓛𝓾𝓹𝓲𝓷

Diary

Day by day, week by week and finally month by month.

It had been two months now that Remus had broken up with me. I couldn't say that I was really over it, but I was making a small progress in my healing journey.

I had the most important people around me, even though they did not know what happened, they were there for me.

Time passed and I realized with each day that Remus wasn't coming back. I had tons of crumbled letters in my trashcan that I wanted to send him but decided against it.

With each day I became more independent than before. I tried not to think about him. Of course, there were still nights when I cried a lot while I thought about him, but next morning I promised myself not to do it again.

Sometimes I thought it was the best decision he made by leaving me. I was so childish, I didn't give him any space.

But then again, he loved how much time we spent together. But maybe, maybe he lied.

Sometimes I wanted to hate Remus. Hate him for leaving me, but I couldn't bring myself to hate him. People grow apart, they broke up, it's life and I couldn't do anything about it.

Pushing myself through everything, I went to the tryouts of quidditch, earning myself a position as a seeker. My first thought about it was to tell the news to Remus. I knew he would be so excited and happy for me.

Now I told the news to dad and Minerva.

But even they were so proud of me. They made me happy. Truly happy.

Somehow I even graduated the school. It was an horrible journey, but now it was done.

I lived for few weeks in home, at Spinners End. I had training, or would I rather say, work, almost every day that lead me not being at home most of the time.

When I got my first salary, I had the money to buy myself a small flat.

But,

Life wasn't really that perfect.

The first few days after my break up, I wrote to Theo. Maybe it was the worst decision, maybe not. But since then we have spent quite a few night together.

I got to know his kids who were staying at his house. We had dinners together, we went for a walks together, we did so much with them.

They really made my heart melt.

They even begged me to come to Italy with them. Sadly, I didn't have that time right now to go and see the world with them. But I made a promise that one day I will travel around the world with them.

It was quite weird situation with Theo. No feelings wee involved and we both knew how wrong it was for us to do what we wee doing, but we couldn't help it.

There were days when I cried in his arms how badly I missed Remus and the other moment we were in his bed together.

He told me that everything was okay and he wasn't bothered by me telling him about Remus.

Dad wasn't very pleased either. When he finally told me that he had knows for about two months of Remus and I dating, he was more like offended that mad.

He is Lupin. He is werewolf

It was all he barged about. He didn't really have a valid point to hate him. He didn't even care that he was actually my professor and it was illegal.

When dad found out I have been spending time with Theodore again, he wasn't happy. He talked with Theo who wanted to cut all contacts with me, but when I cried that I need him, he couldn't say no.

It was all that had happened in the past two months. I couldn't decide if my life was complicated or not.

I closed my diary and decided to call it a night.

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It was time to bid goodbye to Theodore and his kids.

I hugged with his kids and gave them kisses on their cheeks what made them giddy.

"You are welcome to join us anytime" Theo said as we hugged

"I know"

"When there is something, write to me, we'll figure out something"

"Mhm"

"And don't think about him" he whispered into my ear

"I won't"

He looked at me before he leaned down and kissed my lips softly. The kids let out a disgusted groan what made ha chuckle.

"We'll be back before you know it"

"I know, I'll be fine"

"Good" I pecked his lips quickly before hugging him one more time quickly.

"You gotta go"

"See you soon"

"See you soon"

And with that they took their bags and made their way on a boat.

I waved at them before apparating back to my apartment.

I walked over to my room and took Remus' cardigan from my wardrobe. He had left it behind. I didn't dare to throw it away.

I pulled it on and laid down on my sofa.

"You have to move on" I jumped up and pointed my wand towards my kitchen where the voice came from.

"Abby! What the actual fuck?"

"Sorry babe" she laughed and walked over to me "I've been waiting and eating for about an hour, thought you wouldn't come back"

"Wish I could have gone with them"

Abby sat next to me and handed me my own cookies. I chuckled at her and took one.

"Thanks Abbz"

"You're welcome"

Abby and I decided to get drunk as usual. We started with wine and moved on to Firewhiskey. By night we decided to go out to the pubs and just have the time of our lives.

I was really thankful for her. I had told her everything what had happened in mine and Remus' relationship and I was scared she would also leave me, but she simply hugged me tightly and since then she has been by my side all the time.