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Feeling Not Enough ( Pope Heyward x Reader )

Its been a hell of a week, first I got a C on a paper I spent at least a month on, the girls at my school keep reminding me I'm not pretty enough, popular enough, or have enough fashion sense to be accepted (Not that I care, it still hurts though), Had to sit through my grandmother's birthday where all my family members made sure to mention and point out all my failures and inadequacies, leaving me to feel like shit. On top of that today on my way out the door to hang out with the group of people who actually like me, my chosen family, the pogues and My boyfriend Pope, my parents stopped me and sat me down only to inform me they're getting a divorce, my father was cheating on my mother, with an entire other family. I let myself feel blue on the walk to the chateau but suck it up and paste on a happy face for Pope and the pogues because they already have enough on their plates I don't need to add to it. I knock on the door out of politeness but let myself in as John B always told us too. "Pope?... Kie?... Anybody?" I called into the house only to get no response. Great I thought, just great. I settled on JB's couch and pulled a book from my bag deciding to just wait until they return. Roughly an Hour and a half later the pogues piled in through the door, giddy and excited about something. Pope was the first to notice me. "Y/n Baby! Hey!" He smiled plopping down next to me and planting a kiss on my forehead. "Hiya Pope." I smiled back. I waved and sup nodded everyone else. "So what's so exciting?" I asked. "Well..." JJ started but John B smacked him "It's Pope's news let him tell her." He motioned to Pope. "We think we've found where the gold is!" Pope cheered. "YAY that's great I'm so happy! Where is it?" I congratulated everyone and kissed Pope. "We believe it to be on the sunken ship the merchant, we've located the merchant now we just have to figure out how to get down deep enough to look, and or get proof." Kie explained. "MMmhmm so brainstorming time?" I suggested. Everyone nodded and started throwing out ideas. "Rope and a hook?" JJ suggested. "We want to preserve the wreck if we find it not chip away at it." Pope said. "We can rule out 'borrowing' anything from Ward again, i'm not going to be able to get away with it a second time." John B piped up. "Drag net?" Kie pondered. "Sorry, but even if we found one big enough it would be too heavy for only four of us to maneuver." JJ said. "Rope and a Magnet?" John B suggested. "Nope, gold's not magnetic." Pope informed. "Anybody got a GoPro?" Pope asked. A chorus of sorry's and no's floated through the room. "My cousin's a cargo diver for a company in Chesapeake maybe he could help us?" I chipped in. "Nah" JJ dismissed. "Oh what about a bucket and a rope." John B proposed. "Still too hard to maneuver and still a signifigant risk of damage." Pope pointed out. We went around like this for a bit longer, shooting down only two more ideas one being JJ's and one being Kie's before another one popped into my head " Between Kie and I One of us could actually get diving certified?" I suggested. Kie laughed, John B shook his head, JJ just gave me a 'are you kidding me look', and Pope just said "No." just no, just a 'nah' no gentle let down, no reason why it wouldn't work just no to both my ideas. Like it wasn't worth the time or energy to explain why that wouldn't work, Like it wasn't worth wasting the time or effort on me, like from where I'm sitting it seems like a viable option hence why I suggested it. I decided against giving anymore ideas, and JJ suggested the scope that the junkyard has and everyone decided upon that and that we were going to do that tomorrow. The conversation drifted to when was the next party going to be thrown and I quietly excused myself needing some air. I went outside and curled into a ball in the hammock. I could feel tears dripping down my cheeks. I bit my lip and covered my mouth stifling a sob. The emotions of this past week finally catching up to me. A gentle hand followed by the voice of the one I love startled me, "Baby? Are you okay?" I rolled over to look at him revealing my tears, and he responed by wrapping me in his arms and pulling me close. "Baby, my sweet girl, what's wrong?" He soothed. "I-I I feel like i'm not enough for anyone, My family spent the time at my grandma's birthday pointing out and making fun of my failures and inadequacies, I got a C on my English paper, the one I worked on for a month, you guys shot down all my ideas, I mean sure at least one of everyone's ideas got shot down, but at least everybody else got reasons why it wouldn't work, all I got was a nah, a no, JJ looked at me like I was crazy, and Kie laughed. Oh oh and." I paused sniffling my chest heaving, " My parents told me this morning they're getting a divorce, dad cheated on mom, with an entire other family, like I'm not even a good enough daughter, so he goes and replaces me and when I got here this afternoon y'all were gone, no note, no texts, just like did you guys forget about me, or what?" I was full on bawling at this point I collapsed into Pope's chest as he rubbed my back and stroked my hair. "Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry, I promise you're enough, you're more than enough, we all love you, you do so much for us, for me, we'd be lost without you, me especially, and We didn't forget you this afternoon, it all happened so fast, and i guess you were caught up with your parents, JJ said he was going to text the group chat but I guess he forgot that. Not you never you. And as far as your Dad, that's on him not you, you did nothing wrong. I love you, and I love everything about you and I'm so glad you're my girl. and i promise I'm here for you and I will try my very best to make it better." Pope apologized and explained. "I'm sorry for the rant and getting all upset y'all already have enough on your plates I didn't mean to add to it." I sniffled. "No shush, none of that you've nothing to be sorry for my sweet girl, you can always talk to me, just like I can always talk to you." He shushed me. "Ok, and I love you too, thank you for the kind words." I whispered. "Of course." He chided gently. "Sorry to interrupt... but we were coming out here to figure out what we were going to do for dinner and we couldn't help but overhear, and well one we brought you a water and two, Pope was right about us being lost without you, you mean the world to us, and we're so thankful for everything you, and we're sorry about your family." Kie reassured me handing me a water "Thank you for the words and the water." I thanked her "Yeah without you there'd be a lot more broken stuff around the chateau and the kitchen would not be used. And I'll never forget how you were there for me when my Dad disappeared, now it's my turn to be there for you, if you want to stay at the chateau while your folks are going at it, I'd love to have you!" John B. added. "Thank you JB." I smiled at him. "For sure none of us can cook like you can, and I'm sorry for the look, I was only joking but I can see how it didn't look that way, I never meant to hurt your feelings you're like my little sister." JJ piped in. "Aww guys thanks, I can always count on you guys to help cheer me up, I guess I just have to communicate better. Your words mean so much... Group Hug?!" I exclaimed. And we all dog piled into a hug/ cuddle session on the hammock dissolving into laughter and smiles and wouldn't have it any other way.

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