Early in the morning when I received a text message from Dayana.
"We are going to Baguio, dad's want you to come with us."
I replied immediately "okay." Well, it's not really okay but I have to talk to Mr.Esteban.
Dayana hugged me as soon as she saw me. "Akala ko hindi ka pupunta." Tuwang-tuwa niyang sabi
Agad ko naman inalis ang kamay niya na nakapulupot sa leeg ko. "I'm going to tell your dad about us."
She smirked at me. "You won't, kundi maglalayas ako ulit!"
This girl is crazy. What have I done to deserve this? She is psycho.
"I don't care anymore Dayana!"
I was about to walk out when she shouted. "Then I'm going to make Kirs' life a living hell!"
I look back to her. I know she is playing with us, but I won't risk Kirs. I don't want her to get hurt.
I stepped back beside her. "After this Baguio trip we're going to tell your dad about us right?"
She nodded. I just want this to finish. I badly missed my girlfriend. The first thing I'm going to do when I saw her is to kiss her. She is my drug and I can't get enough of her.
Nakatulog ako sa biyahe. Nagising ako ng marahan na tinapik ni Dayana ang mukha ko. "We're here." She smiled.
Agad kong hinanap ang cellphone ko sa bag but I can't find it. What the f*ck, sa dami ng maiiwanan bakit iyon pa? I badly need to text my girlfriend. I miss her so much.
"Can I borrow your phone?" Tanong ko kay Dayana but she didn't let me text Kirs.
The whole Baguio trip is boring. Her father has a seminar to attend and Dayana keeps on asking me to accompany her to the places she wants to visit.
Hindi ako sumama sa pag gagala ni Dayana. I just stayed in my hotel room and wishing that this trip will finish soon.
On our way home Dayana handed me my phone. "Nahulog mo sa kotse."
But I doubt that. Then suddenly, I remember that I put it inside my bag so why it would be possible to drop my phone in the car?
Dali-dali ko itong binuksan at isa-isang pumasok ang mga text ni Kirs. Man! I'm going to see her again. I'm getting excited.
"Where are you August? Why you are not texting me?"
"I swear I'm going to kill you. Bakit kailangan mo magpamiss? It's effective, will you please come back now?"
I smiled because of her messages, she never fails to make me smile. I'm falling deeper everyday.
I also received a message from Janna, her classmate. "Punta ka sa bahay? Just a little celebration. Nandoon din girlfriend mo."
Na eexcite na akong makita siya. Medyo late na kami nakarating ng Manila kaya imbis umuwi ako sa bahay na nila Janna ako dumiretso. I have to see my girlfriend.
Nagmadali ako pumasok sa bahay nila Janna. I want to surprise my girlfriend but it happened the other way around. Ako ang nasurpresa.
John is about to kiss my girlfriend. What the hell! "Don't you dare."
Agad naman siyang tumayo and excised herself. Susundan ko na siya ng pigilan ako ni Sasa.
"Magpalamig muna kayo."
Binaling ko ang tingin ko kay John at tsaka siya kinuwelyuhan. "How dare you to take advantage of my girlfriend huh!!"
Nakahamba na ako ng suntok pero hinawakan ni Gelo ang kamay ko. "Cool dude. We're just having fun."
Tinignan ko siya ng masama at binitawan ang pagkakahawak kay John. "Fun? Tangina! No one can touch my girl aside from me. Ako lang! Naiintindihan niyo?!"
Kinuha ko ang bag ko na nalaglag sa sahig dahil sa sobrang inis. I hate this feeling. I'm fvcking jealous.
"August!!" Sasa was there standing behind me.
"Saan ka ba nanggaling? Nakausap ni Kirs si Dayana kahapon nag-Baguio daw kayo?"
That girl didn't know how to keep her promise. Oh shit! That's why she didn't bother talking to me.
So the whole time I was in my hotel room she came back in Manila so that she can talk to Kirs? Damn! I thought the deal between me and Dayana will help our relationship better but hell no! It's getting worse. Why do I even trust her?
"Trust me, I don't want to be with Dayana..."
She cutted me off "wag ka sa akin magpaliwanag, pero mas mabuti siguro kung sa ibang araw na lang kayo mag-usap."
I do what she told me but this is so frustrating. I can't even sleep knowing that Kirs is mad at me...and I'm guilty because I'm with my ex girlfriend.
Wala pang limang minuto ang lumipas ng pumunta ako sa bahay nila. Good thing there is a shortcut so it just take me few minutes to arrive at their house.
Bubuksan niya sana ang gate ng hawakan ko ang braso niya. She is just staring at me with a blank expression. I want to cry, I badly want to hug her but I'm afraid she will just push me away.
Hinila niya palayo ang braso niya sa akin. 'Don't give up on us' that's the only thing that's keep on replaying on my mind.
She is crying continuously. Damn! I'm always making her cry, this should be the other way around. I'm supposedly protecting her not this.
"Lagi ka na lang bang iiyak tuwing magkikita tayo?" Stupid question August! You know why she is crying.
She slapped my right cheek so hard. I deserve this. I'm an asshole!
"Bakit ba ang gago mo?!" Her voice is broken. I can't even look straight in her eyes. I don't want to see her crying.
"Wha-" pilit kong inaabot ang braso niya pero ayaw niyang lumapit ako sa kaniya. I missed your touch Kirs.
"Where have you been? Sinong kasama mo? ANONG GINAWA NIYO?!" She is fumming mad.
I want to explain everything to her bit she just didn't allow me.
"you don't need to answer. You can now leave."
I leave but I came back to their house on the next day.
I know I'm not allowed to Kirs' rooom anymore but I still asked her mom if we can talk there. Alam ko naman hindi siya lalabas ng kwarto niya kaya better kung ako na lang ang papasok sa loob.
"So-sorry." I manage to say. I don't care about pride anymore. She's more important than that.
I hugged her but I feel her shaking. She's crying again. She pushed me away. How can I explain this?
"I'm with Dayana. We went to Baguio."
Tinakpan niya ang mukha niya ng kamay niya habang umiiyak. This is so hurtful.
"Please...don't cry." Gago ka August! really? Patatahanin mo right after what you have done?
"Pinagkatiwalaan kita e pero bakit ganito?!"
I hug her once again, please pare just let me hug you.
"I just can't say it to you now. But trust me-" damn! Bakit ba hindi ko na lang sabihin ang totoo?
I don't have to sugarcoat the bullshit that I have done. I'm an asshole, it's pretty obvious.
"Then leave!" I touched her hand "just leave!!"
Lumabas ako sa bahay nila at sumakay sa sasakyan ko. There, I burst into tears. I cannot afford to lose the girl of my dreams, the love of my life.
