"I can't do that."
Nakabalik na kami sa bahay. Buong biyahe kong pinagpaliwanagan ang lalaki sa ibig kong sabihin ngunit pagtanggi lang ang nakuha ko.
Ang sa akin lang naman, tutal ay katulong niya ako sa trabaho at kahit dito sa bahay, maging totoo siya sa akin. Sabihin niya kung ano ang nararamdaman niya. Hindi iyong magsisinungaling at magpapanggap siya tapos bigla na lamang sasabog.
Truth is . . . I just want him to share his burden because I know there is.
"Why?" I tailed him to the sala. "We had a bet. You have to do me a favor because I won."
Ibinaba niya sa sofa ang bag at nagtungo sa kusina upang uminom. Sinundan ko siya.
"The fact that we don't know much about each other?" He paused. "It means we can't trust this early."
"I trust you," ani ko. "Kung hindi ako nagtitiwala sa 'yo, wala ako rito. At sana ay hindi na ako pumayag na maging katulong niyo rito at sa trabaho." Sadyang may mga bagay na kailangan manatiling lihim.
"It's your choice so I can't do something about it."
"Don't you trust me?" There was disappointment in my voice.
"Objectively speaking, Solen, we may still betray each other. Besides, you can't force anyone to open up to you. That can be emotionally demanding. People only open up when they're ready and they're trusting enough. It can't be forced."
I sighed. "Then why aren't you trusting enough?" Mahina ang boses ko sa takot na sumama ang dating no'n sa kaniya.
"Because people who trust ended up breaking."
"Did someone break you?" I asked. "That's why you can't trust me?"
Natigilan siya. Our eyes locked and though he shook his head as a response, I read him.
"People did and I saw how. There's what we call Social Learning Theory. We observed other's actions, we saw the consequences, we imitate or avoid them. You don't have to experience one thing to understand it."
Malalim akong huminga. Ano ba ang alam ko sa mga teorya? Ito ang dahilan kung bakit ayaw kong makipagtalo sa kaniya.
"Kaya pala may naririnig akong aso at pusa mula sa hardin. Nakauwi na pala kayo," si abulea. Nakabuntot sa kaniya si Khali na may damo pa sa ilong.
"Ask something else." Ako ang kausap ni Señor.
"But that's what I want, señor."
"You know what, I can lie about what you want if I don't want to do it honestly. Are you okay with that?"
Ano raw?
"Ano ba ang pinag-aawayan ninyong dalawa? Para kayong mag-asawa."
Sabay kaming napatingin kay abuela ngunit walang umalma. Well, in my case, I didn't want to offend him. How about him? Why didn't he hiss like he always do?
"Fine, Señor. I want something to else," pagsuko ko. Nakapamewang ko siyang tiningala. "Take a day-off. Don't work, don't isolate yourself in the office, unwind."
"Choose just one," aniya.
"Take a day-off." Iisa lang naman iyon. "Tomorrow, you won't work."
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Been Hunting Home | Suarez III
Romance[SLOW EDIT] Soliesse Adelina is a sophisticated woman from a private family of de Andrades. For the last five years, she was caged at their mansion which most may call a dream-perhaps a home. She knew she was missing a lot about life and she wanted...
