When Love Calls

Zac's Backstory ( Therapy Session)

Therapist: what about you Zac? Tell me a little bit about you.

Zac: Well I come from trauma all the way around. I have one brother and one sister. My mom was addicted to drugs. She always told me that I would never be anything. And always made me feel like I was nothing. And my dad has never been in my life. I guess when she looked at me, it reminded her of my dad.

Therapist: How was you relationship with your grandparents?

Zac: My grandmother was just like my mom. Bitter and angry. She also always told me that I would never be anything. And she always stood by her daughter which is my mom side, instead of correcting her.

Therapist: And what about your relationships?

Zac: 3 years ago I met someone I thought loved me. But she turned out to be the complete opposite. She turned out to be just like my mom. Because all she ever did was make me feel worthless. She talked down on me even chance she got, which was everyday. I'm not saying that things wasn't ever good but when it turned bad, it stayed that way. I had a job, I was getting on my feet and was trying to be a better man for her but she turned around and had sex in the same bed we slept in.

8 months ago

Zac: So we back on this Karen? This what we doing? I thought we were working on us. I gave you time and this what you do.

Karen: Fuck you Zac. Get the fuck out my house.

Zac: Karen when I walk out this door I ain't coming back. I'm sick of the back and front.

Karen: There's the door, open it and walk out.

Zac leaves!!

Fast forward to now.

Therapist: was this something that y'all always done. Broke up and got back together?

Zac: Yes. And I'm not saying it was all on her because I cheated on her and did my own dirt. But she always placed all the blame on me and never took accountability for what she did wrong.

Therapist: I mean that's normal how it goes. It's always that one person in the relationship that's going to always put all blame on the other person than both parties taking accountability for the relationship going wrong.

Zac: I took and take fully responsibility for my own doings. I'm man enough to say that I was wrong. I didn't know how to love properly because I didn't know how to love myself. But the doesn't excuse my wrong doings.

Therapist: And I'm glad you know and understand that.

Zac: But when I met Fatima, she placed a light on the inside of me that I've never seen before. What she saw in me made me want to be that man. Because if she could see it without even knowing me, why couldn't m/can't I see it in myself. She the first woman to ever come into myself and made me want to fight. Made me want to change to become a better man not only for myself but for her as well. She deserves all of me. She deserves to be loved and treated like the queen that she is.

Therapist: Listening to you speak. You have not once put blame on the other person. Zac You sound like someone who's been through so much and is now finding his way back to life. Zac it's hard enough for a black man in this life. But know that you are worthy so never ever sell yourself.

Zac: Fatima tells me that all the time. She never talks down on me and never allow me to talk down on myself. She corrects me every time I do it. I never had that in anyone. I just love her so much and i don't ever wanna lose her.

Therapist: The two of you have something special, it's deep. It's trauma tied but it's beautiful. I see the love that you both have for each other. And it's nothing that I've ever seen before. I see that you pour so much love into each other that it's nothing less and nothing more than the other, It's equal. And that's important. You are already half way there, you just need to heal from that trauma so that you can be better for each other. Also never stop being honest and open with each other, y'all got this. I want you both to do a daily exercise. The exercise is taking a hour out your day and meditate together. Don't say anything just take in each other's presence. And listen to each other think.

Fatima: Thank you so much for having us today. We will be coming back.

Therapist: you're so welcome. It's always a pleasure to meet new faces.

Fatima: likewise.

Therapist: See you next week.

Fatima and Zac leaves out and headed to dinner.