When Love Calls

Stop Blaming Yourself

They got ready and headed out.

Fatima: Mama you need anything, we about to head out?

Anita: No baby I'm good?

Fatima: Okay, well we love you.

Anita: Love y'all too and be safe.

They left and headed to therapy. 30 mins later they get there.

Fatima: You ready?

Zac: As ready as I'm gonna be.

Fatima: Well let's head in.

They got out the car and headed inside.

Faith: So what brings you in today.

Fatima: Baby would you like to talk?

Zac: Two weeks ago, I almost lost my wife? ( gets emotional )

Fatima: Baby it's okay, take your time.

Zac: It was June 20th and she had just giving birth to our beautiful baby boy. And I literally watched my wife become lifeless. She wouldn't wake up, no matter what we did. I sat by her bedside, watching her fight for her life and it wasn't anything that I could do. I felt helpless.

Faith: First let me just say that I'm so sorry that you experienced that. And I'm so glad that you made it through.

Fatima: Thank you

Zac: It was so scary. I thought I lost her and I don't know what I would've done if I did.

Fatima: Zac blames himself not only for what happened but for everything that goes wrong. And I have to tell him over and over that it's not his fault. I hate seeing him blame himself and beat himself up behind it.

Faith: And Zac why do you feel like it's your fault?

Zac: Because I've done things in my past that I'm not proud of. Ive hurt people out of hurt that I was dealing with. And she wanted to wait to have another baby. Maybe this wouldn't have happened if we waited.

Faith: Zac, that's life. We can't control things that happens. Yes you have a past, but we all do. You gotta stop blaming yourself and breaking yourself down because of things that happens.

Zac: It's hard not to when things happen like this.

Faith: Do you see that women sitting next to you?

Zac: Yes.

Faith: Well she loves you flaws and all. She accepts you for you. And she will never make you feel like you're the blame for everything that goes wrong.

Zac: I know she want.

Fatima: Well you gotta stop blaming yourself when I don't do it. I've never gave you a reason to do it. Baby I love you and I want you to really take into consideration how it makes me feel seeing to do that to yourself. I hate it, and it hurts.

Zac: I never realized how much it affected you until now. And baby I'm sorry.

Fatima: Zac, baby I need you to forgive yourself. And give yourself full permission to heal so that you can move forward and stop putting blame on yourself because of those things. Our babies needs both of us because if daddy's not okay then mommy's not okay. And if we both aren't okay, then we can't be okay for our children. You have a beautiful daughter who adores her father and one day our son is going to look up to his father.

Zac: You're right.

Faith: I've always admired the love you both have for each other. It's beautiful and heartwarming. And in a way it's inspiring.

Fatima: We tell everybody who thinks we have the perfect relationship that we're not perfect. We have our moments just like any other couple. But we fight through them because at the end of the day, we know what we have.

Faith: And that's what matters.

Zac: Thank you Dr.Faith.

Faith: You're so welcome. So y'all had a baby boy.

Fatima: Yes, his name is Zion Luther Taylor.

Faith: That's a beautiful name.

Fatima: Well thank you.

Faith: You're welcome.

Fatima: Well we're going to get going and head home to our babies.

Faith: Fatima before you go, I need your help with something.

Zac: Should I go?

Fatima: Baby just give us a min and I'll be right out.

Zac: Okay baby. And thank you again Dr.Faith.

Faith: You're welcome Zac.

Zac leaves out

Fatima: What's going on?

Faith: I know you're a lawyer and have resources. I'm trying to find my father and get in contact with him.

Fatima: Do you have any information on him?

Faith: All that I know is that my mom left when she was pregnant with me.

Fatima: Do you have a name?

Faith: His name is Aaron Michel.

Fatima: Okay, and where's he from?

Faith: I'm not sure

Fatima: Okay well I will try to find what I can. And I will get back with you. I'm not working right now but I still can get the information.

Faith: Thank you so much.

Fatima: You're welcome.

Fatima leaves the office and got in the car.

Zac: Everything okay?

Fatima: Yes, everything's fine.

Zac: You wanna get some food?

Fatima: Sure. What we going to get?

Zac: Whatever you want.

Fatima: Let's get some American deli.

Zac: That sounds good.

They got their food and headed to the house.