maybe, we are | ss

ꔣ 74

"w-what?"

joshua saw how the prince's mouth left ajar upon hearing what he said as he also saw how he stood froze on his spot that seokmin had stopped pulling back himself from his grip. their eyes remained staring at each other and joshua could feel nothing but guilt, regret and madness because the more that he was staring at seokmin's expressive eyes, the more that he was being reminded of what he did the last day which he didnt expected that the prince was there and he heard him fucking other omegas behind him. and that was enough for his heart to react, to shrink, at the same he was feeling how he hate himself that he did it.. he did it behind the most precious person in the world.

he cheated on seokmin.. he cheated on the crowned prince of korea, the next king.

but despite how it was making him feel mortified, shame, regret and guilt inside, he stayed in his eyes staring at the prince... because thats the least thing he could do to show the prince that he wasn't just desperate to talk to him and explain himself but to show to seokmin that he is serious... he is fucking serious about what he said. that marriage thing. joshua could swear that in his whole life, the only thing thats certain was him being a businessman, but right now there's more, there was something more, because he was certain, he was certain of marrying the prince.

it wasn't because he wants a title in the future, that he wants power ㅡ no ㅡ thats never been like that, and no, it wasnt because that is what his parents and the king had told him to do.. but because it was his choice. wanting to marry the prince was his choice! wanting and planning to keep seokmin for the rest of his life was his choice. no, he didnt also signed himself for this.. because he just knew! he just fucking knew that he wants seokmin! he wants the prince not by power nor by title, he wants the prince himself.. he wants seokmin, he wants him, for who he is and for what he is. he knew.. he knew he wants more of seokmin, and that want made him plan to keep him for the rest of his life.

no, he did not felt it when he wants to marry jeonghan before. because what he felt before towards to that omega was just, because of his desire, for his pleasures. and even though it was jeonghan whom he had set to engage with, he was certain that what he felt towards to him wont change. that jeonghan was all for his desire and pleasure. and jeonghan wont top the way he wants everything to seokmin.. more than just his desire, pleasures and so. or more specifically, happiness and feeling nothing but home.

seokmin blinked thrice. "y-you're insane for that joshua hong!"

maybe.. maybe he was really insane that he just woke up and he wants nothing but to marry the prince already. sounds too fast and too insanely, right? but joshua could swear that it may sound insane or so whatever you may call, but heaven knows how certain he was for wanting seokmin for a lifetime, for the rest of his life and for having this so-called marriage to come true. he may couldn't explain enough how, why, and when did it started but he was sure.. he was certain that what he want right now, is all that he wants to happen. nothing more nothing less but having seokmin with him. but having the prince.