Maybe This Time

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Sara's pov
 
 

Im in the car with Yuna papunta kami ng mall to buy somethings for her school, pero may bumabagabag sa utak ko hanggang ngayon..

Hearing the conversation of bong and win, makes me uneasy and confuse..

When he confess to me that night on our alumni I thought he was just making an alibi, but what he told me was all true..

Kaso napagod na ako maghintay, napagod akong umasa..

On those 5yrs was a rocky road for me, building my own company and moving on to Bong..
 
 
Flashback
  
  
I was looking for Win dahil hinahanap na sya ni Tita when suddenly may naaninag akong dalawang tao sa may gazibo na nag uusap..

Its not my intention to eardrop on their conversation but when Im near to them I've heard something I didn't expect..

"don't be sorry its not your fault I was so coward to admit to her about my feelings, and I regret it big time but don't worry I already accepted it.."  bong told win then my tears just drop from my eyes

Bakit ba kasi bong ngayon pa? Bakit ngayon ka pa umamin kung kelan naka move on nako sayo, kung kelan natututunan ko ng mahalin si win..

Kung kelan masaya nako eh, saka ka pumasok ulit sa buhay ko at ginulo mo na naman ang mundo ko..

Nagpatuloy pa ang pag uusap nila ahabang nakatayo naman ako sa di kalayuan, sakto lang para marinig ko ang usapan nila..

" I love her since I saw her in Davao I even sent myself there to enroll in her school just to see her everyday..

But there are things in our life that we need to manage our priorities, I prioritize a promise for the sake of our properties.."  sambit ulit ni Bong

Then I remember him, he was the guy na tahimik sa room at walang kaibigan..

His the guy na gwapo at matalino pero hindi nakikipag usap..

Lagi ko syang napapansin pero hindi ko alam ang pangalan nya, I didn't thought that it was bong all along..

"Even though I wanted to tell her my feelings but the truth always reminds me that if I court her and be my girlfriend that time, I might hurt her too much..

Inuna kong isettle ang pamilya ko bago ang sarili kong kaligayahan, kahit gustong gusto ko ng sabihin sa kanya na mahal ko sya kaso hindi pwede..

Ayaw kong mahalin sya at maipit kami sa sitwasyon na mapipilitan akong iwan sya dahil sa isang kasunduan na hindi ko ginusto.."  then my heart begun to crumple by pieces

Hindi ko maintindihan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko dahil sa mga sinabi ni Bong..

All this time we felt the same love for each other but he doesn't have the guts to tell me dahil nakulong sya sa isang kasunduan na hindi nya gusto..

After hearing those words I started to walk away and wiping my tears..

Why Bong? Why? 

Kung sana sinabi mo dati yung sitwasyon mo handa akong sumugal para sayo, handa akong lumaban kasama ka..

Napaka duwag mo naman Bong!

You didn't even try to tell me, kung sana sinabi mo dati pa masaya sana tayo ngayon..

Sana ikaw ang kasama ko sa araw-araw, sana ikaw yung karamay ko sa mga problema ko, sana ikaw yung inaalagaan ko at sana ikaw yung lalaki pagsisilbihan ko habang buhay..