Needing You (you, Series #1)

CHAPTER TWENTY

"Do you like me??"nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa tanong niya. What?? He said that while laughing, as if everything he said was not true, as if he's only joking. "Kidding," and laugh.

"What if yes?"napatigil siya sa pagtawa and constantly coughing, nabulunan sa sariling laway. You deserve that!

"You're kidding."he said in his serious tone. And with that, i burst into laughing. I hid the awkwardness by saying..

"Ofcourse i am!"and laugh. Parang nabaliktad ang sitwasyon and i didn't like his reaction. Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin and i just raised my right eyebrows. "What? You started it first, sabi ko naman sayo wag ako." I said while smirking.

"Don't do that again,"nawala lahat ng reaction ko sa mukha.

"Ok."was the only thing i said at nauna nang maglakad.

Isang kanto lang from our school ay may mall na kaya i know that he already knew kung saan ako bibili. Minutes after nasa gilid ko na siya, we didn't talk and just walk. Ganto ba ang mangyayari pag umamin ako sa kanya? Magiging awkward ba? Well, i don't want to happen that kaya kung aamin man ako i'll make sure na hindi kami magiging awkward. Pero what if wag na? Wag na kaya?

"Kell," tumingin ako sa kanya, ang gwapo niya. "We're already here." why so serious, babe. Tumango lang ako sa kanya at pumasok na sa pizza parlor, my favorite. I looked at the corner, i miss mom and dad. Dito kami laging napunta after namin mag simba. The ambiance is very retro at ang cute pa ng mga crew. Para silang western crews.

"Two boxes of pepperoni pizza and two boxes of hawaiian pizza please. And uhm.." tumingin ako kay dray, "Ano pa dray?"

"Yung mauubos lang natin kel," i pouted, as if im thinking.

"Ang cute niyo po tingnan" nanlaki mata ko nang sabihin yun ng cashier saka umiling-iling.

"We're not lovers, mind your own business not ours." seryosong sabi ni dray.

"Ehem that's all miss, take out. Thank you." Nakakahiya! Ano ba kase tong crew na to ang pakealamera naman. Im really sure that my face turned into red like a tomato, my gosh!

We waited for like 30 mins for our order at buong minutong yan wala siyang kibo. May mali ba akong nasabi? Did he take it seriously dun sa sinabi ko kanina?? Siya naman nag simula! Hanggang sa tawagin na kami for our order hindi pa rin siya kumikibo. And now we're walking pabalik sa school, what if sabihan ko siya na magkita kami later sa rooftop? Pero gusto ko nang sabihin sa kanya ngayon para wala na akong iisipin mamaya. Yes tama, now na! Huminga ako nang malalim and i saw he side eyed me. Napalakas ata hehe.

Building my confidence to finally say it out, that i really like him. Naririnig kong kumakabog nang malakas yung puso ko, it's like she wants to get out and that she's suffocated in this feelings of mine towards dray. Hang in there little fella, i got this. Saan naman ako magsisimula? Is it “Dray, i like you” or “Dray, may sasabihin sana ako” or “Dray, i don't just like you but i love you.” or “Dray, i wish you'll like me too cuz me? i like you very much and im willing to wait.” What if magulat siya and iwan niya ako, pano na itong mga pizza?? No, it doesn't matter. Aamin na ako ngayon, huminga ulit ako nang malalim. This is it. Tumingin ako sa kanya, nakatingin lang siya sa harap at parang walang kasama! Kahit kailan talaga.

“Mauna ka nalang muna kel, ma–” ofc he stopped talking kase hinawakan ko braso niya.

“Where are you going?”

“May dadaanan lang sa library.”

“May sasabihin sana ako,” i said and slightly bit my lower

“Ano yun?” i gathered all my guts and ready to spit it out— pero nakatingin lang ako sa braso niya, namental block ako! Ano nga ulit yun?? Ano nga ulit yung dapat kong sabihin?? Omg! “Kel?”

“Uh! Ano kase, i just want to say that i–”

“Dray!” for freaking fudge sake! Ngayon pa talaga leandale??

Disappointed, yes. But the pain in my heart worsen when dray’s mood changed. His aura was dark a while ago, should i continue this confession? Parang kitang kita naman na wala talaga akong pag asa. I should cancel this bet. Wala akong pag asa kay dray, no masasaktan lang ako sa kanya.

“Sabi ko kita nalang tayo sa library e,”

“No worries, drayce.” Drayce? Hindi niya gustong tawagin gamit yang pangalang yan. “Oh kel! Hi!” i just smiled to her. “You guys can go na, binalik ko lang talaga book ni drayce.”

Nauna na akong maglakad, nawala na ako sa mood. That girl can ruin me hundred times by just looking at her talaga. Walang palya. Ugh! This is so irritating.

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Pag balik namin sa classroom kanina ay di pa sila tapos sa decorations, i think 6 kami mag sstart. I want to go home na. I'm just sketching here, super boring na. Because of what happened i told karla na magpapahinga muna ako, kunware may sakit but the truth is ayoko lang makasama sila lalo na nandun si dray. I can still remember how that dark and cold stares changed when he saw leandale. Do i need to feel this? C’mon im already sad about the things that happened in our family, pati ba naman dito? Pati ba naman sa kaibigan ko? Oh no, scratch that. Kaibigan? Really.  “Drayce” he don't want to be called like that. Why?

“Guys, by 5:50 gather up and we will start our victory party by 6.” karly announced. Tinago ko na lahat ng gamit ko and fixed my hair. I'm sure tatawagin ako sa harap. Patapos na sila sa decoration na mamaya tatanggalin din naman. They're very invested in these decorations thing hays.

“Now that everything is done, tawagin naman natin si kel. Hey kel, come over here!” sigaw ni karly. I sighed, naglakad na nga ako papuntang harapan and smiled to her and everyone.

“Thank you for supporting me guys, without those nonstop scream just to support me hindi sana lalakas loob ko. I would also like to thank my friends,” I looked at dray. After all sa kanya naman inspired yung gawa ko. “Thank you for encouraging me and motivating me to do this.” I smiled at him at sa kanila ni cloe. I don't like how he stared at me, it's cold and serious. “Enjoy the food and enjoy the party!” tumingin ako kay karly.

“I don't think i can do it.”

“Why?” I sighed.

“I think he's mad.”

“Why? What happened?”

“I don't knoww”

“You can do that, let it out kel.” I sighed again.

“Do you think i can still do it despite of the fact that i don't really have a chance?”

“Just give it a try.” she smiled.

I sighed again, building my confident to say it to him. I walked towards him and when im in front of him, hinila ko siya palabas.

“Kel! Why?”

“I have something to tell you,”

“Hindi ba pwede sa loob?” he said while im dragging him, sumusunod din naman.

“No.”

Nagpahila lang siya sa akin, pupunta kami sa rooftop. I will confess my feelings to him.