Here we go again
New people
Same game
She says she cares
That she wants to help
And so I tell her that she can try
Part of me is curious
I want to know if she'll be the one
The one I can trust
Who can help
Who actually cares for once
I promise to try harder
Try to eat
Try to smile
Try not to cut
I promise I won't jump off the roof
Or out of a car
When I make them
I believe it
I think I can do it
And I'll talk to her every time
That I'm scared
Or lost
She'll hold my hand
Speak encouraging words
I'll be okay
But then everything starts again
My own little hell
And I can't keep my promises
I cut
I skip every meal of the day
I lie
She'll find out
And she'll be disappointed
She'll wonder if I trust her
I swear that I trust her
I just don't trust myself
And I make the promises again
I promise to try harder
Try to eat
Try to smile
Try not to cut
I promise I won't jump off the roof
Or out of a car
But this time
When I make them
I know that they're lies
I won't eat
I will cut
I won't be able to smile
Because I will break
And she can't save me
She's not the one
But she tries
She keeps trying
Refusing to give up
And I wonder
Will I keep my promises next time?
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Empty Thoughts
RandomJust an odd collection of thoughts in my brain that sometimes come spilling out of my mind