Empty Thoughts

Lost

I'm lost

Standing here
So close to you
Yet so far away
You're so untouchable
So unreachable

You haven't been mine in forever
But sometimes I still wish you were
I don't know why
We never worked
But maybe we were too young
Too different back then

Maybe it was just the wrong time
Not that we would work now
Or that we should try
I don't even know what it is I want from you
Do I even want anything?
I'm not good at relationships
Not that I even want to be in one

I get lost in you
You're my own personal addiction
Visually tracing every line and curve
You're my version of cigarettes
Memorizing every feature of your face
Your cute lips
And striking eyes
That narrow nose that's so perfectly centered

I could drown in you and never come back
Just as one drinks to the point of no return
Stare at your perfectly kissable lips for hours
Allow myself to breathe
I don't even know what I would do
Where to begin figuring out what it is that I want

Why I even want everything back
It's hard to remind myself that
It's probably just an addiction
An addiction that needs to be killed
I have to stop thinking about you

I can't let myself get lost
I need to stay in reality
But if I could
If I had the chance
I'd kiss you
Just once more
I'd remember the way I got lost in your lips before
I would let myself get lost one more time

There's not a thing I wouldn't do
To get lost
Lost in my addiction for just one more moment
To just get lost in you