Empty Thoughts

Temptations

The temptation of the skinny metal blades

The forbidden fruit

Is killing me

I gave in last night

The burning fire

Glistening water

Bright red paint

It fascinated me

Trapped me in

And there it is again

The need

To displace some of this hell

Onto my skin

Remove it from my heart and mind

Desperately I hope

It will let me breathe again

If only for a moment

I pray

That this time, I'll really kill it

I'll kill the feeling that makes me dead on the inside

But I never do

Paint covers my skin

Washed around by the water from my eyes

The burning feeling spreads up through my hips

And all the way down my arms

I sit on the ground

With hot tears

Shaking violently

Thinking about the temptations filling my mind

Begging me

Just one more time

If I give in

I won't have time to feel the satisfaction

Before the temptation strangles me again