Empty Thoughts

Aud

I don't know what else to say except I'm sorry

I'm sorry for all the pain I've dragged you through

I am sorry that I blamed you for the taste of alcohol on my tongue

And the feel of pills sliding down my tight throat

I don't know what else to say except I'm sorry

And that I miss the way things were before

I am sorry that I am an addict

And I'm sorry I let that addiction ruin us

You are my safety

With you, I can breathe

I don't know what else to say except I'm sorry

And I know that I'm sorry cannot fix us anymore

I know I am not solely to blame

Yet I am solely responsible for my part

I don't know what else to say so I say I'm sorry

But what I mean is that I love you

And that with you I belong

 I don't know what else to say so I remind you that I am here for you

And that you can always come back to me

What I mean is that you are everything

That a friend could ever ask for

You are caring, loving, and compassionate

I don't know how to tell you I need you

So I continue to push you away

But what I really want to say is that I'm sorry

Yet I don't know how to say sorry without making it sound so cliché

I am lost without you by my side

You bring joy and laughter and fun

And friend, I am so sorry

I know I need you more than you need me

I don't know what else to say except I'm sorry

I'm sorry I don't know how to give you a proper apology