Empty Thoughts

Sinking

I'm sinking again

Faster than the titanic

We aren't friends

We never really were

Our friendship is the only thing that I would ever dare call

Impossible

My week pulled along

And I broke all of my rules

I stopped trying

Didn't even get out of bed one day

Wish I didn't today

But I did

I plastered on my best smile

Until I cracked

The water filled the ship

And I began to sink again

Faster and faster

Until I broke my rules again

My skin shattered with the facade

And red waves engulfed everything

And that feeling

The one that starts in the pit of my stomach

And fills every part of me

And urges me

To do the one thing one doesn't think about in the daylight

The thought that usually only comes

With my midnight tears

And plans form from this idea

I think how easy that would be

Comes and haunts me

It's the anchor pulling me down

And I can't stop sinking