Why is it all hard to ignore
I'm not even feeling anymore
Everything is all just white noise
Background music to my hell
I used to be able to go out every night
Hang out with friends
Go to parties
Be normal
But now it takes me days to recover
From just one night out
I want friends
But I can't stand anyone being close
I need people to talk to me
But when they do I push them away
Can't go shopping
Because the mall has too many people
Can't go to someone's house
Because I'm expeted to talk
Can't go to parties
Because I'll have a panic attack within minutes
And I can't go out to eat
I dread everything
Breathing
Thinking
Talking
Dancing
Laughing
Everything about being normal
How can I hate everything about something
But desire it
How can I hate normal
But want to be normal more than anything
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Empty Thoughts
RandomJust an odd collection of thoughts in my brain that sometimes come spilling out of my mind