Today I've decided
I want to be happy
So starting tonight
I'm saying goodbye
To the pain
And suffering
And hate
Every time
I want to hurt
I will simply mark my skin
Not with a blade
But with a pen
And then I'll walk away
And I'll do something else
Talk to someone
Who doesn't make me sad
Talk about something
That makes me feel
The happiness that used to come
So easily
So consistently
The other day
I saw a picture
Of a girl
I was jealous of her
Because she was happy
She was careless
She was free
Sitting there with a boy
Laughing
And I knew
It was real laughter
I knew because I remember it
I remember that night
That moment
That girl
Was me
And I miss her
I want her back
I want to be her again
So every time
I'm feeling sad
And want to die
To never leave my room
I'll mark my skin
With a pen
And as the days go on
The pen will fade
And new marks will come
But there will come a day
When I have no marks on my skin
Because one day
I won't need them any more
I won't need any sort of distraction
Or any help
Because one day
I'll wake up
And I'll realize
That I'm happy
That day will come one day sooner
Because I started to change things today
I stopped putting it off
I decided today
That I want to be happy
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Empty Thoughts
RastgeleJust an odd collection of thoughts in my brain that sometimes come spilling out of my mind