Empty Thoughts

Tiger

Once again, I'm under the knife

Lately, I've only been doing a few incisions at a time

I've been careful

But not tonight

Tonight I couldn't hold back

I ripped into my skin 5

10

15 times

I stopped somewhere in the thirties

Punched a wall

And tried to forget it

But no, tonight that wouldn't do

So I picked up my little friend once again

And tried for a few more

A few turned into ten

And ten to twenty

And look at that I had at least thirty more

In just a matter of minutes

I had destroyed clean skin

By shredding it and mixing it with red

My own personal tiger stripes

But I didn't feel so strong anymore

Always, I had been able to stop

I had been able to put it away

And control myself before it got to be too much

Tonight was different though

I don't even know who was in control of my body

Just that it wasn't me

If it had been, I wouldn't have all these stripes

It turns out tigers aren't as beautiful as I thought

But I have you to blame for tonight

It was bound to happen sometime soon

You knew I would break

But you don't know how badly you hurt me

You never will

Because now I'm stuck with tiger stripes

And they just don't quite suit me