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【33】Bad Habits

T/W; Mature themes, please be mature in the comments, and read ahead with caution.

〖Your P.o.v〗

 As we drove off in the snow, I sobbed into his back, and not for a second did he question me. He just kept driving and driving through the snow. It was almost ironic how familiar this scene was. The last time I was this upset was when Kenny died. And just like at the end of that night, I took off in the snow.

For once, I really believed I found the perfect guy for me. The guy who had always been there for me since I came to South Park, Kyle... He turned out to be just like every other shitty guy out there. A liar. I guess I really am meant to be alone.

As we kept driving in the snow, I gripped Craig tighter and kept crying. Eventually, we came to a stop, and I looked to see where we were. Stark's Pond. The last time I was here, I was with him too.

"Why'd you bring me here?" I got off his motorcycle.

He got off, and looked at me, "This was the last place where I got you to stop crying," He said, showing me a small smile to try to cheer me up. He brought is hand up to my face and wiped away the tears that were sitting on my cheeks.

"Why did you decide to help me still? I rejected you just a couple days ago," I said, peering down.

"Well, I finally realized that I was acting like a total asshole. I should've at least tried to listen to you,"

"It's whatever, I don't really care about that anymore..." I said blankly, staring down. Suddenly his phone went off. Someone was calling. Before he could say anything, I left him so he could answer it.

I walked over to the bench in front of Starks Pond and sat down. I looked up at the light snow, slowly falling down. The tears in my eyes had finally dried up, but not because I wasn't sad anymore. More like, I couldn't bother to even try anymore. Why feel all these emotions? It just makes me feel horrible. Empty, and almost lifeless, but I'll bounce back eventually right? I always do... but this time? Will I this time? How am I gonna face them at school? I don't even want to face them at all. They betrayed me, lied to me, gave me hope that someone could love me unconditionally. Is that so much to ask for? Maybe I don't deserve it... Even so... they're my friends. How could they do that to me? Friends... I don't think I could even call them that anymore.

Craig appeared from behind, and came up to the bench and sat down next to me. He scooted near to me, not leaving a single inch of space. He took off his blue coat, and put it around me. Then he put one of his arms around me, the other placing a bouquet in my lap.

"What's this for?"

"They're 'sorry I was a shit boyfriend for the 10 seconds we were together' flowers," He chuckled slightly.

I wish I could laugh.

"It's okay, I forgive you because what you did was nothing compared to them," I said emptily, staring off into space.

He looked at me with a confused stare, "Stan and Kyle, I'm guessing?"

"Yeah... I bet it's all over social media now," I said solemnly. Craig took out his phone, and then realized there was video trending on all of our main pages. He played it, and I could hear the audio of the video,

"Dammit Red, give back my phone!" I could hear Tolkien's voice.

""No! This is too good, everyone needs to see this!" I heard Red's voice.

And immediately, the recording of what happened between Stan and Kyle started playing. I felt my heart wince at their voices. I associated their voices with comfort, familiarity, and even longing and safeness. But now, when I hear their voices, all I can feel is their betrayal and the hurt they inflicted on me.