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【Stan Ending】Twin Flames

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〖Your P.o.v〗

The other day I was hanging out with Wendy and talking to her about different things. Talking about spiritual things like the concepts of soulmates and the compatibilities of two people. She told me about something, I think it was called Twin Flames. Twin Flames happen when a soul is split into two. Half of a soul goes into one person, and the other goes into another person—your other half. I couldn't help but think of this concept. It was beautiful, yet sad. Apparently, not everyone has a twin flame, and if you have one, the chances of meeting them are very rare. The chances of being with them, are even more rare. Wendy told me that one of the hard parts of being in a relationship with your twin flame is that it can be healing, yet problematic. When faced by the mirror half of your soul, you'll see your biggest weaknesses, you'll find that they're so similar to you, that their problems will make you realize your own. They are your other half after all. When she told me all this, it reminded me of you,

Stan.

I've never met anyone so similar to me. Someone whose life, personality, and problems, made me see myself. We mirror each other. And that can be difficult. Your problems were so similar to mine that they helped push me toward healing.

Just being next to you, I felt more at ease.

I wonder if I did the same for you? Did I help ease your worries too?

Healing is a journey we both need to take and although I'm not quite there yet, I want to take you with me.

I took his hand and dragged him further down into the forest near the water. His hands were cold, despite it being summer. My hands were cold too because I was nervous.

He looked at me questionably, but he didn't seem bothered by the close proximity. By the looks of it and the feeling I get from him, it's as though he's welcoming me toward him. I can feel it.

"(Y/n), what'd you bring me out here for?" He looked at me questioningly.

"There's been something I've been meaning to tell you... I... I've kept it a secret for the longest time because I was afraid to complicate things even more...But now that I know that you're going to be leaving me soon, I have to tell you now. This can't wait,"

I looked up at him, just to catch his curious expression.

I continued.

"— This whole thing that happened between you, me, Kenny, and everyone for the matter, has always been complicated. In the last few months, you and I have been through so much. My parents were fighting and always doing drugs, your parents were fighting and doing drugs... We both lost Kenny and beyond that, we were both facing a lot of mental problems... Depression, anxiety, all that. Sometimes, I felt like it was hard to face you, because of how similar we are. I've never felt so alike to someone before. Our problems, our personalities, our poor coping methods, looking at you was like looking into a mirror. It's been difficult for both of us. But even though it was hard, you were right beside me through it all. We helped ease each other's worries and problems... I need you Stan, and I can tell that you need me too., and so, even though you're leaving, I want you to know that I'll always be yours, and no matter what...I..."

I trailed off, afraid to say it.

I looked up at him, and he was staring at me,

"I love you," he finished.

Of course, he knew.

"I love you, Stan," I smiled up at him.

He blinked away tears, and bent down to my height, placing his forehead against mine,

"I love you too (Y/n)," He said, barely even a whisper. I could see joyful tears slide down his face, with a faint smile.

Suddenly a loud boom was heard, and we both looked up to the sky. The sky was scattered with dazzling blue, red, and white fireworks. I looked up at the beautiful sight, listening to the loud booms of the fireworks, when suddenly, Stan placed his hand on my chin, guiding my lips to his.

Our lips moved in sync, and I started to cry as we kissed. The kiss was warm, yet needy. He pulled me so close to him, that there wasn't even an inch between our bodies. I moved my hand to the back of his head, holding his hair as we kissed. He moved his arms around my waist, holding me tightly.

I could tell he needed me as much as I needed him.

He moved his tongue into my mouth, and I allowed him to. We kissed for a few more moments, until he pulled away, leaving an inch between our faces.

"I... I love you (Y/n)!" He professed as tears fell from his eyes. I could feel tears fall down, as I smiled.

I was happy to know my feelings were returned, but sad because I knew he would be leaving.

"I'm going to miss you," I whispered.

"I'm going to miss you even more (Y/n)!.. I... I don't know how I'm going to do it without you! I need you (Y/n)! I need you to live! You're the only thing in my life that makes sense! When I'm with you, I forget about all my problems! When I'm with you, the voices in my head finally go quiet, and the only thing in there is you. You! You're my cure, my light, I... I need you (Y/n)! I love you! More than myself! More than anyone, or anything! Before you came, I would live life so normally, but deep down, I was struggling, I could barely deal with all my problems. And then you appeared, and in you, I saw myself, and my problems started to become more and more apparent, I didn't know what to do... I didn't know how to help myself...You know how messed up I am, and how messed up I can get, but even so, you're brave. You did everything you could to help me. You're so beautiful (Y/n), inside and out, you're kind, you're funny, you're beyond smart, you're so selfless! You're all these wonderful things, you could be with literally anyone, and yet, you chose me... I..."

"I love you, Stan," I said through tears.

"For some reason, you love me,"

〖Stan's P.o.v〗

"I love you so much Stan," She continued.

When you say those words, I feel every trouble in my mind go silent. When you say those words, I forget about all the shitty problems I've ever had. You really don't realize how much I love you, and how much I need you.

"I love you too (Y/n)," I choked out.

She smiled at me, and I could feel myself becoming warm.

Ever since I've known you, I was always looking your way, looking for your smile. Because when looking at you, I become so warm. When I'm with you it's like I'm sitting under the sun. Everything about you is so comforting, so safe, and so bright, so familiar. I need you (Y/n). 

Without you, I feel incomplete, like half a soul wandering around, looking for its other half.

" I know the next few months are going to be hard, but I'm going to do everything in my power to keep us together," I said kissing her hands.

"The distance will be hard, but together we can do anything," She said.

"Yeah..." I rubbed away my tears, and she kept her eyes plastered on me.

I smiled at her and brushed away the leftover tears on her cheeks.

"I love you, Stan," She declared.

I leaned down and placed my lips on her. She kissed back, and this kiss was short, yet sweet.

When she pulled away, she wrapped her arms around me, and leaned her head on my shoulder,

"This feels right," She said.

"Yeah, with you by my side, I finally feel complete"