A song of ice and fire

Chapter 48

Jeongin's pov
"baby, you should talk to them...you can't just lock yourself here" seungmin hyung said, I know that han hyung tried to meet me when they come back...and yesterday both chan and changbin hyung came by but I did not meet them too...i am starting to feel pathetic...when is spend time here alone...i got the chance to think...i am angry that they didn't help me yet it is not their job too...i should take care of this alone...it is my kingdom,my uncle and my people...they offered because they were kind to me not because they have too...i am such a burden...that if they offered to help because they think I am weak and incapable of taking care of this...
"jeongin" seungmin hyung said again making glance at him."you..."

I stood up from the bed taking him by surprise "where are you going?" he yelled behind me as I opened the the door walking outside of the room"jeongin"he added but I didn't stop my steps started to quicken as I made my way toward han hyung's room.
I was about to knock when the door was opened revealing felix hyung, he looked surprised to see me before a frown come on his face.
"jeongin"he said scanning me up and down, which made me feel bad about myself....i know I am a mess right now...and I look like one but who could blame me...this is too much.
"stop it"I murmured looking away.
"what..."
"stop looking at me like I am pathetic weak...like I am going to break any freaking second"I cut him off but my voice come higher than I intended to, making the guards glance at us.

"what is going on..."han hyung said looking from behind his husband's back who looked at me with an unreadable expression" jeongin, you are here...i was worried about you" han added coming toward me, as soon as he hugged me I felt my whole body tense...i hate this...i hate that I feel like I am going to cry any second now.
"you are okay...."
"do you even care about me?" I said making his eyes widen.
"of course I do...i come as soon as..."
"you left...you left me alone...and I know I am making a fool out of myself...but I needed you hyung...i needed you the most out of all people...you are..."I paused shaking my head I come here to prove that I am strong yet I am doing the exact opposite..."you are more than my friend...i see you as my rock...my big brother..."I busted into tears not able to
continue my sentence.

I felt myself being pulled into a tight hug by han hyung"it is okay buddy...it got you...i am sorry "he said rubbing my pack"let's get inside...i need to tell you something"he added pulling back.
"no...i come here to say...i don't need your help anymore...i will face him alone..."
"jeongin, please come inside...this is important"he cut me off, I glanced at felix hyung who was silently looking at han hyung.
"I...i don't..."
"listen to him" Seungmin hyung said squeezing my hand...
I gulped as all of them looked at me, it felt kind of awkward with all the stares I got from the guards...i just embarrassed myself in front of my friends and the guards.

I nodded my head making han hyung stepped aside giving me space to enter the room.
"I am not angry that you left without me...i am not a kid...but neither you nor anyone told me about our next step against my uncle..."I said taking a deep breath" Look at what happened now...he hurt Rose...my boyfriend's father...he destroyed my kingdom...and I was just here waiting without doing anything...because you asked me to wait....you asked me to trust you"he added.
"I know jeongin...we didn't forget about the air kingdom...but there is something going on...it is bad..." han hyung said glancing at the fire prince who was watching us with crossed arms.
"are you sure?" felix asked making me glance between the both of them confused about what they are talking about.

"what is going on?"I asked making han hyung sigh.
"I need to tell him"han replied still looking at his husband.
"it is your decision" the other shrugged.
"what are you talking about for god's sake?"I yelled, they are acting like I am not even here.
"I need first to calm down and sit"han said making me frown.
"hyung just..."
"jeongin sit down" felix hyung cut me off.i did as he asked before seungmin hyung seat next to me too.
"what is happening to the air kingdom is bounded to happen...it was not your fault...it is faith"han said rubbing his forehead.
"what do you mean by it is bounded to to happen...what faith are you talking about?"I asked shaking my head...