where will destiny take us?

☆ 31 ☆

I tried the dresses, looking at myself in the mirror. They're a perfect fit for me though 'yung iba is maluwag nang kaunti tapos 'yung iba is masikip nang kaunti. It can still work. But, to whoever picked these dresses, they have a very different style from me.

I like modest dresses, not too much skin but enough to be flattering. May mga gan'on naman sa mga dinala ni Kai kaso mas marami talaga 'yung revealing and 'yung hapit sa katawan.

Ivan even wanted to see me in the dresses that he sponsored for me. He paid for the dresses and he's the one who asked Kai to take it here. How he convinced him, that, I don't know.

With how much of a green-minded person I know Ivan is, I showed him the dresses that are loosely fit on me and are modest to my standard. May mga maxi dress naman kaso meron ding mga backless. It's not like I'll go anywhere. How would I wear these dresses here?

Mabilis akong maubusan ng damit since konti lang ang kasya sa suitcase ko. So I have to sacrifice always doing laundry. After doing it many times, napagod na ako. So these dresses would be ideal if maayos ang style ng lahat.

I don't think I can wear most of these casually at home with Ivan here who's always staring at me. And especially now that his stare got heavier because of his confession.

Ivan likes me. He loves me, he said.

And his reason is because of me being thoughtful of him. The things that I subconsciously do for him. It didn't mean much to me but for him, especially knowing na he's always treated poorly just because of his disability, it means a lot.

I didn't know I had that effect on him. Now that's why he changed. That's why he became like this.

I didn't know what I was doing. But it's not like I'll stop knowing na ganito ang epekto sa kanya. It's just the natural thing to do; to be understanding of his situation. But no one has done that to him that my being the first one turned to this.

I just... didn't know. Who would've thought?

"So, how are you?" Kai, who's sitting on the swing chair beside me on the patio, asked.

"Good."

We're both waiting for Ivan to finish cooking lunch. Tinaboy na ni Ivan si Kai kaso makulit ang lalaking 'to kaya hindi na ako nagtaka na nandito pa rin siya.

"Didn't expect you to be here."

"Me neither."

"How long have you two been living here?"

Binilang ko naman ang araw sa isipan ko. Ngayon ko lang rin napansin na ang haba na pala ng panahon na lumipas. "Almost a month."

He looked at me, brows furrowed. "Just you two?"

"Yeah."