Temptations

Chapter 30

Lee's Pov~

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When my prom dress came in, I cried. When I realized I didn't have any other friends besides Gwen, I cried. When I was in the middle of crying and Nacho came and sat next to me, I cried even more.

What is wrong with me?

I thought that once I was out of a relationship my grades would improve and my family would be okay with me, but my grades were still slipping because I couldn't focus on anything and my Aunt and Uncle now knew that I was dating a girl in the first place because of my lovely brother.

Every room in my apartment reminded me of Gwen and everything she had done here. Cooking in the kitchen, cuddling in the living room, getting ready in the mornings in the bathroom, waking up in the bedroom. Every corner of the place echoed Gwen's name and as much as I tried to ignore it, I couldn't.

I walked to the kitchen and poured some cereal in a bowl but before I could pour the milk there was a knock at my door. I opened the door to see my neighbor smiling at me.

"Hey Lee," She said and walked past me to the couch. Without a word, I walked back to the kitchen and finished pouring my milk before sitting next to her, my very late breakfast in hand.

"Where's Gwen? I haven't seen her around in a a couple weeks." She asked casually.

"Gwen doesn't live here anymore." I tried to say it nonchalantly but my voice crack kept that from happening.

Edith gave me a frown before pulling me into a hug. "I'm so sorry for opening my stupid mouth," I slipped my cereal onto the coffee table while she squeezed me tighter.

"It's fine. I've been just having a hard time." I looked at my hands as she let me go.

"I'm really sorry, Lee. I'm right next door if you ever need me or anything at all." I nodded and a tear fell from my eye. She was quick to wipe it away but more kept falling as I started to sniffle and cover my face.

"I'm sorry. This is really embarrassing." I forced a laugh but it formed a sob and I found myself in Edith's embrace again.

"You're allowed to have emotions, Lee." She said softly and I continued to cry into her shoulder.

"I just don't know what to do. I broke up with her because I thought she was distracting me but now that she's gone everything's worse." She nodded and stroked the back of my head.

"You'll have those feelings for a while. It's just the part of you that feels guilty. If you genuinely did it to better yourself, that part will come but nothing good happens without a little bit of pain." I sniffled into her neck and backed away to look at her for a second.

I looked her in the eyes and examined her face. She had a soft and caring expression. I brought my gaze back to her hazel eyes.

"Lee," I hummed in response as she glanced at my lips. I brought myself forward to her, connecting my lips to hers and sweeping them in a soft motion.

I don't know why I did it. Maybe I missed the feeling of sweet kisses or maybe I needed something to take my mind off of my former girlfriend. Either way I had to push the guilty feeling in my stomach away to be able to do this.

Maybe it was the feeling of her against me or the emotion that came with it that made me want more of her, whether it was good for me or not I wanted more of her and she knew that.

But she stopped me.

"Lee. Lee! Stop!" I pulled away from her and waited for her to speak. She ran a hand through her short auburn hair.