Temptations

Chapter 32

Lee's Pov~

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I paced in my living room while I waited for Gwent to show up. It was stupid really, she still had hours until she was going to be off and I could be getting ready.

She looked so pretty today.

I ran to my bathroom and looked in the mirror to examine my face. I looked how I usually did. Light makeup, hair in a low bun. But it wasn't enough. I felt this overwhelming need to look perfect for her every time she was in my presence and I felt it coming on again.

That meant crying over outfits, screaming because my hair wouldn't cooperate, and for some reason adding a quick workout routine into my getting ready.

I checked the time and saw that it was only 1:00 at this point. Edith went to her apartment but she told me to just bang on the wall if I needed her again.

No. If I'm trying with Gwen again I can't do that.

I didn't even know if that's why she wanted to talk.

I was in the middle of putting brown eye shadow on my eyelids when there was a loud knock at my door. Carrying the mirror into the living room with me and finishing my eyeshadow on the way to the door, I opened it and my heart stopped beating for a second.

Gwen stood in front of me and she looked amazing. I thought I was going to die right in the spot.

"Hey!" My voice cracked and she nodded to me.

God why is it so awkward??

"Come in!" I moved out of the way and quickly threw the makeup back into the bathroom before coming out to find her sitting on the couch.

"I've missed this place.." She said quietly but loud enough that I could hear her.

"Gwen I-" I stopped myself before I just got embarrassed.

She looked a bit hopeful for a second but after a second of silence her face fell back to a neutral expression.

"I miss you, Lee." She said amongst the stillness. "I miss you so much." Her voice was breaking and I looked at her to see that she was crying.

To my surprise I didn't try to hold her or anything I just sat there. I was frozen. All the words I had rehearsed in my head suddenly were forgotten and I was dumbstruck.

"I don't know if I did anything wrong to you or you fell for someone else but I- I just want you to look at me the same as before and.. and I want you back." She said, taking deep breaths to calm herself.

Still, I wasn't able to speak. I prepared for this, why couldn't I think of something to say? I miss you too? I want you back as well? Everything sounded so stupid. Why did I get myself into this mess in the first place? Why did I text her back? I could've just left her on read. No. No that would've been worse. Nothing could be worse than right now.

"Can you say something?" Damnit.

"I.. Gwen," I gave her a sympathetic look but she just shook her head at me.

"Okay." She let out a sigh and wiped her eyes. "You can talk to me when you actually want to talk." She got up and went to the door.

"Gwen!" She was already out the door though.

"God I'm so stupid!" I threw myself back on my couch. "Fuck!" I got up from the couch and ran to my room. I knocked on the wall a couple times and in about thirty seconds my front door opened and Edith stood in the doorway.

"Hey, why did I see Gwen leaving down the hallway?" My breathing sped up and I started pacing. "Are you okay?"

"No! I just blew it with her! I got ready and prepared myself for this and then I froze up and just stayed quiet! I'm so stupid! What is wrong with me? Oh my god!" I ranted.